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Moved

2009-04-16T15:35:00.002+08:00

I've moveed!

http://pameela.wordpress.com/

(:

Till then!

Loves

Pink

2009-04-11T00:07:00.002+08:00

Your eyes reflect the color Pink.
You are a person who wears their heart on their sleeves.
You are full of emotion and have a tendency to be very open with people.
You adore the simple things in life and refer them as "gifts".
You have an aura around you that radiates how loving and caring you are.
You spend most of your time trying to make others happy.
You also try to focus on yourself as well.
You are also very supportive and sensitive.
Because you are so emotional you have a tendency to also be very depressed and can be devastated by a loss.
You can also be moody and angry at times when people disagree with you.
In all you are Emotional.

The last sentence I don't really agree. Perhaps at times.

2009-04-01T21:20:00.002+08:00

She can't wait to get it over and done! (:

She can then finally have sometimes for herself

For the people she cares

For the people she dearly loves.

She's counting down quietly in her heart.

Smiling to herself. (:

2009-03-31T11:47:00.002+08:00

So Self-centered

So Self-absorbed

So Selfish

You only care more about yourself and not others around you

You don't even know sometimes what you say actually hurt others

You ALWAYS put yourself first.

THINK FOR OTHERS TOO!

YOUR NOT THE ONLY LIVING PERSON IN THE UNIVERSE!

FREAKING GET OUT OF YOUR SELF-INDULGENT BUBBLE

I hate your attitude at times.

You think it's only important to you?

THINK AGAIN!

It's equally important to me as well!

ITS NOT LIKE I WANT TO BE SICK NOW RIGHT!

Sometimes I wish for you out of my life.

You ALWAYS ALWAYS, without fail piss me off.

Anyway, I got 2 words for you.

SCREW YOU!

Random Post

2009-03-28T23:56:00.000+08:00

I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.

No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.

Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.

Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.

Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.

Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

Yeppie!
You should be on the flight soon I think.
Hahah!!!

If I never remember wrongly.
Your coming home tomorrow!

I missed you.

2009-03-27T21:53:00.000+08:00

Okay.

I'm officially sick.

Down with fever, cough and flu.

ARGH! Three in a shot.

Super sian.

Ning was super cute. Ytd I asked if we were meeting in school.

She said,"No its next Friday. And Pam you HAVE to rest. Your in school 24/7 and your sick. Still think of meeting tml!. TSK TSK! GO REST!

I went to the doc in the morning. Though of going to school after getting my prescription.

Dad was nagging at me asking me to go home instead. At that time, he didn't know I had fever.

In the end, I smsed lyn telling her I wont be going to school.

Whole body feels rigid and hot.

Went home instead.

Slept the whole day!

I've been having weird dreams & thoughts lately.

Sigh. I have to stop all this.

Its driving me insane.

Why the constant popping up?

Impossible is in my dictionary.

Live with it.

Day 6 after your gone.

2 more day!

I think

Dance

2009-03-26T21:40:00.000+08:00

Went to school.

Learnt the Gee Dance by Girls' Generation.

hahah! It's actually a dance from a Korean song.

We're doing the first 1.20 mins. haha!!

Cute dance actually.

Its one of the performance we have to do for BAOC. Yeap

And I learnt it less then a day.

And all of them we fascinated by the way I shake my hips. haha!

Thanks to dance sports I guess. Isolation.

Went for formation after the dance practise with BA Society.

I think I over exhausted myself.

And I fell sick.

Whole body feels like its on fire.

Went home, took a quick shower and slept.

5th day since you left

Counting down: 3 more days

Listen

2009-03-25T12:26:00.004+08:00

Okay. People. I'm going to be removing my tag board really soon!

So if you your want to leave a message or a tag.

You can do so at the comments sections on each post.

4th day of departure.

Why am I counting?

2009-03-24T23:40:00.002+08:00

I'm in dilemma now.

15 May's 21st B'day or 15 May's D&D Performance

Both important to me.

How to chose?

Sigh?

14th April is selection?

To go for it or not to go for it?

Time will tell all tales.

3rd day of your departure.

Having fun?

2009-03-23T23:34:00.003+08:00

I PASSED EVALUATION ON 2ND ATTEMPT.

First attempt, I failed by freaking 1%. 90% passing mark. I got 89% !!!!

Went to Ikea to look for boxes. haha!! In the end, I side track a lot,

I WAS FASCINATED MY THE WARDROBES.

And John was having the time of his life laughing at me going crazy over that. haha!!!

2rd day since you left.

Miss you already.

Help out

2009-03-22T23:21:00.000+08:00

Slept freaking late ytd.

On the phone for a while with you.

Chased you off in a way. hahah. Morning flight.

Woke up at 545.

Switched off alarm & fell back to bed.

Woke up in shocked.

Jumped out of bed.

Kinda late.

Left the house.

Dad drove.

Was outside Zouk (carpark area) at 7A.M. (DARN EARLY LAH!)

Packed goodie bags and ensure everything is in place.

Said bye to you wishing you a pleasant flight.

Competitors (cheerleaders) Came

COMP STARTS LIKE REALLY LATE.

WHEN THEY SAY THEY WERE SUPPOSE TO START AT 1400. DRAG UNTIL 1430 -1445.

Okay that's not really a problem.

I got a list of complains to complain.

1. A few cartons of water, a GROUP of cheerleaders share 1 BOTTLE! And like how do you expect them to share. when cheer leading is a sport to dehydrate yourself. They expect cheerleaders and people to buy water from zouk at $3 each. They come here for comp and not to spent money right! Ya lah zouk is their sponsors but they (organisers) should also find other water suppliers.

2. The organisers who organised this event, has to really plan ahead.

3. My friend's friend came. He is actually in Magnum Force. People who don't know what is that, it is actually a cheer leading group in NP. Okay, that's not the problem. The problem is he was in clutches and Faith actually asked one of the organiser if she could get him a sit. The organisers just said no. Seats are only for VIPs. LIKE SERIOUSLY RULES CAN BE BENT AT TIMES RIGHT!

I think that's about it lah. haha! the complain. I left early to meet parents & kor for dinner.

Went home.

Smsed that your safe.

I showered, crashed and slept immediately.

Phototshoot

2009-03-21T23:29:00.002+08:00

I went to school for Ambassadorial photo shoot! This time Group 3 is in charge! Yeppie!

Hahaha!!!

At first I told Sam that I could make it but I changed my mine because I couldn't find anyone going. I was kinda desperately asking people online if they were going, somehow those I asked where not going! I smsed Sam again that I couldn't make it. LOL. Until Dian, she said she is going, Azizah is going too! AND I WAS LIKE WHAT!? I just smsed SAM!!!!!! like a few seconds ago! hahah!! I was telling Dian if only she replied me on msn earlier. =.=

Anyway, like I said I went to school for the shoot. It was actually for the banners and pictures that are going to be placed up during Ambassador registrations for freshman and yr 2s. (:
I reached school at 0948, smsed Dian and Azizah asking if they were in school and Dian say she is in clementi because she just received Sam's sms saying that the entire thing starts at 12 instead of 10, Azizah said that it starts at 12 and she is still at home. LOL

I was literally O.O

DIAN WAS SO SWEET! (: She say she'll come find me in school. HHAH!

But sadly her story was rather funny and sad.

She thought she was late so she cab to school. She told the uncle," Ngee Ann Poly. FAST!" hahah! But her HP has problems actually. So when she was in the cab, she received Sam's sms about the change in time, she was like OH MY, and she told the driver that she would alight at clementi instead. Uncle was okay okay no problem. However, he stopped at the bus stop opposite NP, turned and ask Dian if she wanted to U-turn. She gave him the HUH, uncle I want to go clementi not NP. hahah! So he say haiyo, okay okay! then he drove to clementi.

AND THIS IS WHERE I COME IN! hahah!!

She received my msg in the mids of traveling to clementi. BUT she never tell the uncle back to NP. hahahah Later the uncle just kick her out of the cab halfway.

So she basically cabbed back to school after reaching clementi and she was 2 hour early. =.= We went to the field for the photoshoot

WE WERE LIKE THE COOKIES! BAKED UNDER THE SUN!

hahah! but after that it started to pour really heavily. LUCKILY we finish the shoot.

I waited for mom to come because she say she can drop off me and kor to De Kor's place.
MAHJONG!!! WEEEEE~~~~ (: It's actually another family gathering lah. haah!

Skip the mahjong part. Overall I won $1.90. hhaha! better then nothing okay!

Helping Yve tml for cheerleading. hahha 100% sai kan warriors.

You leaving tml!

Argh!

I'm gonna miss you! (:

Dance Comp

2009-03-15T22:17:00.002+08:00

hmmm! Dancesports Comp has officially ended ytd!

Tiring but a fulfilling one!

The principal was there to support us & you know what, he is EXTREMELY HAPPY!

hahah!!! Because

NGEE ANN RULED THE DANCE FLOOR!! (:

In the finals at least 4 to 5 couples are from NP!!!

Everytime we were all going to for our finals, we were like, OH its your again! hahah! Let's go!

Ytd was a day filled with excitement. I can still feel the butterflies in my tummy.

Everything ended to quickly, before you know it, it's price presentation.

Brandon and I join 6 events

Tertiary Grade E (Cha Cha)*

Tertiary Grade E (Rumba)*
Tertiary Grade E (Jive)*

SGDF Grade E "open" (Cha Cha)*
SGDF Grade E "open" (Rumba)

Grade D (Cha Cha & Rumba)

Out of these 6 we gt into 4 events, THE FINALS!!!!

Once in the finals, it a confirmation to get a cert!

Anyway the whole events was T.I.R.I.N.G!

Heat after heat,

Round after round,

In & Out, In & Out

Dance a total of more then 20 rounds.

Aching Legs,

Sore Feet,

but fruitful outcomes. (:

In short, NPDS is the best! (:

2009-03-09T09:06:00.002+08:00

Today is the start of training.

Sign.

May I last this training.

My patience & awaiting is wearing thin.

2009-03-06T10:05:00.002+08:00

My March Vacation has been burned by activities....

Reality

2009-03-04T20:57:00.001+08:00

Palm reading is actually scary.

Actually everything is fine until I heard one part.

After hearing that, I felt so dejected & broken hearted.

I personally feel that it's a fact that things may happen this way.

Somehow, I cannot accept reality.

2009-03-04T20:53:00.003+08:00

2nd camp for March has ended

BAMP camp. I had fun and met new people from my group.

Although only 9 people turned up, we're still bonded as 1 group.

Anyway, sometimes I find my parents annoying.

I dont know what's going on with me.

Major mood swings.

I can suddenly be okay with a person, in a blink of a second, I can find that person a pain.

Irregardless whether the person is my parents a not.

Sigh. What's happening.

Remembrance

2009-03-01T17:30:00.005+08:00

Okay! Exams have officially ended on the 27 Feb but I couldn't update yet because I had to come home quickly write messages for the year 3: Nikki, Jon Chia, Jess, Ira, Raymond and Jocelyn. Apparently I had problems writing because I had no idea what to write for them. It's so sad that it's their final and they are leaving.

Oh btw I just woke up. And I can't really process what I'm writing now because I'm still a little stone and I'm crying while writing this. So I'm kinda gonna try let it be short and sweet.

3 days 2 nights Ambassadorial Retreat Camp

A time whereby all of us reflect on ourselves on why did we join ambassadors.
A time whereby a new president of Ambassador is elected/voted/selected.
A time whereby each AL be came their group's Leaders.
A time whereby new ALs are selected from potential year 1.
A time whereby year 3s have graduated.
All in all, the new excos of 09/10 was form today on this current date, 1 March 09

After which all groups have their individual meeting with their Ex-Leader, New leader & ALs.
Sarah Nat. You are one of the gem in Apache and we'll never forget you. Sincerely, I wish I've know you a a little more when you were still with us. Now you are the new AL of the Ninjas. You will be missed!

Emotions went crazy when Sarah hug each and everyone of us individually. Almost everyone of us were in tears. Initially I was able to control myself but the moment she stood up and hug us all individually, I couldn't take it anymore. It's the feeling of something is being forcefully removed from you. It came to our new Leaders & ALs to give their speech. Sam, Ning & Faith just to let you know we will always be supporting you!

We were kinda suppose to talk individually but there was not enough time. So it was OTOT. I was fine during that time Deb & I went to take our envelopes. I went to find Sam after that. Congratulate her. But the moment I started hugging her, I started to cry again. I was telling her that I'll support her all the way & it's sometimes not that I don't want to talk to her but I just don't know how to approach her. She was telling me she had the same problems too. And we say we'll work things out. After that I couldn't stop crying. I went to look for Dian & Azizah and started hugging them so that I can stop crying. But the moment I did. I just couldn't stop tearing. Anizah and Stella where there too. When they hugged me, I started to cry even more. Okay so I managed to control my emotions for just a while before Jon came. He was standing behind me and Azizah asking what we were doing. He saw me crying and I told him to stay away or I'll just start crying again. The moment he put his arms around my neck and pat my head, I started to cry again. I seriously felt like a water bucket today. He wanted to take a picture so I went along trying to control my tears. He placed his arms around my neck and when Anizah just counted 1... I couldn't take it anymore. I stared Crying again. I couldn't hold back my tears. But finally I think I managed to take a picture. Oh my, super unglam. I just couldn't stop crying. I went to look for Faith and tell her that she will be a great AL just believe in yourself. I cried the moment I hugged her. I approached Ning and told her that she will be a good AL & I cried the moment I hugged her again. The moment I approached Nikki, I started crying again although I know that I will be still seeing her again. And what you told me, I'll keep it in my heart. Looked for Jon, gave him a hug. He ask me to stop crying again. I said no more tears to cry. I told him when he does go to Australia, remember to keep in contact and don't forget me. I went around hugging people, talking to them. I was rather reluctant to leave but I left together with Deb @ ard 215. Yve drove, so on the way, Yve dropped us off at the atrium. Thanks Yve. And my dad picked both of us there.

I have never felt so emotional in my life.
I truly regret not knowing some of the people.
I can somehow understand now why seniors say treasure it while you still have it.
It's a time of goodbyes and Hellos.
Its a moment worth the remembrance.
Ambassadors have made a great difference in my life.

Ambassadors, thank you.

War

2009-02-23T18:36:00.002+08:00

"YES!!", SHE YELLS AT THE TOP OF HER LUNGS.

"Your going down!", she screams again

4 days of war has begun!

Now she's halfway through the battle

Armed with an army of short gun-ners

Armed with an army of sharp shooters

Armed with an army of machine gun-ners

Armed with an army of tankers

Armed with an army of fighter pilots

Armed with an army of snipers

Today

she has just won her second day of war!

2 more days to go she screams!

Marching off to face her new rival.

If only

2009-01-18T23:35:00.004+08:00

If only I know who you are.
If only I know what you want.
If only I know what you are thinking.
If only I know I am always there for you.
If only I know your real emotions.
If only I know I am the one you're looking for.
If only I know what I want.
If only I know what my true feelings are.
If only I know where I should have stepped in & draw the line.
If only at times life doesn't make a mockery out of me.

I wouldn't feel so exhausted and lack of air.
I wouldn't be all confused and lost.

If only I have you here with me, holding me
Tell me with care in your eyes that everything is going to be alright.
I would have drifted away from my thoughts.

Reunion Dinner Cum Gathering

2009-01-18T14:27:00.002+08:00

Chinese New Year is like 2 weeks away.
This year's CNY apparently is FREAKING early!
So many things to do, so little time.

If I had 3 wishes,
I will wish for time to slow down,
wish to remember all fun times together,
wish for everything to go smoothly.

CATS presentation is this coming Wed
BCOMM OP2 is TOMORROW!
ITB, MIEC is week 16!

Finals are arriving.
Cousin is migrating to Australia.
Papa Kenny, Kor Kor Jon are leaving NP; awaiting to go to the army,
Will hardly see them again especially Jon when he goes overseas to pursue his dream.
Have to register for driving.
And I need you here. (To random person because I have no idea who I need)

Ytd's reunion dinner was at my granny's place. After lao-ing YuSheng and eating abit.
I had to leave early to go to Sean Chi's place for a grp 3 gathering.
haha! YES FINALLY RIGHT!? I realised.
I brought awfully chocolate as dessert. haha!
PLUS ICE CREAM TOO!
My dad fetched me there.
So when I arrived,
Sly, Jocelyn, Nik, Azizah, Brandon, Shirley, Faith, Sean, Jon & Mark were there.
Mark was thrown into the water when I arrived.
Oh and btw I was not spared.
THEY WERE PERSISTENT!
I struggled like CRAZY as if I was saving my life.
1st attempt I managed to free myself.
I was kicking super crazily like riding bicycle like tat ahaha!
Brandon had problems catching my legs!!
The 2nd attempt they were smarter. =="
Jon held down my legs.
I think it was faith who was behind me.
Same old same old. I struggled.
Screaming that I will go down later because I have a lot of things on me.
They were brutal!
Force me to remove my stuff and MAKE SURE I NEVER RUN AWAY!
So yea.
I had to remove bangle's from both hands, my ear rings, my belt and handphone from my pocket.
SEE THE NUMBER OF STUFF I HAD TO REMOVE!
like i said they were PERSISTENT!
After that I cannot really remember how they managed to throw me into the pool.
But yea bottom line, i did get wet at the end of the day!
THE FUNNIEST THING WAS MARK!!!
He was like PAM stop struggling, my arms are tired!!!
Jon was panting and was tired. He was like your darn hard to be drag into the pool.
Brandon he went into the pool with his dry pants!==" ahahah comical!
So yea the entire party ended like 11.
Dropped Azizah, Sly and Shirley at redhill mrt station before going back to my granny's place. They were still gambling man!
I played 2 rounds of mahjong. haha!!
i took over my auntie and i was an amature @ using the chips.
when the game ended i lost 7 i think.
then i was suppose to pay my uncle.
so he was like ohh u have to pass me 7.
I TELL YOU IT WAS SO EMBARRASSING!!
I pass him 7 dollars of chips!!!! hahah!!!
where in actual fact i had to give him 7 dollars CASH! =="
my brother and my uncle were laughing at me lah!!!
then i was like huh... its real money ar. okok!! haah!!!
so yea by the time I reached home was 1 plus close 2.

Showered

Changed

All geared up to crash the bed.

Said good nights & Hugs

Off I went drifted soundly to sleep.

I'll be there with you (:

2009-01-16T20:48:00.002+08:00

You walked with me,

Footprints in the sand,

And helped me understand,

Where I'm going,

You walked with me,

When I was all alone,

With so much unknown,

Along the way,

Then I heard you say,

I promise you,

I'm always there,

When your heart is filled with sorrow,

And despair,

I'll carry you

When you need a friend

You'll find my footprints in the sand.

Random Facts

2009-01-14T18:34:00.002+08:00

Yes CATS assignment is like 90% done!!!

We're left with compilation of our final report.

OHHH I have to do my self-reflection in a creative manner! haha!

I NEED MY CREATIVE JUICES TO FLOW SOON!

Weeeeee~

Can't wait until it is over! Woot!

Chinese New Year is around the corner.

This means that FINALS ARE COMING TOO!!! :(

ARGH~~

SAVE ME~ Sigh. o.O

But on a brighter side, 7 WEEKS,

7 LONGGGGGGGGGG WEEKS

of break is arriving! :)

I'm gonna PAMPER MYSELF LIKE CRAZY MAN!!!!!

BUT ARGH, I'M GONNA BE A YEAR 2. Sounds old. ==" sigh.

But apparently I don't look like my age, it's quite depressing actually.

Anyway, I'm gonna register for driving soon man! HAHA!!!

Drive to school and then home. (:

OKAY! LAST BUT NOT LEAST,

CONGRATULATIONS~~~

TO MY GOD -BROTHER:

JON CHIA (:

FOR PASSING HIS DRIVING!

(See I spell your name correctly this time okay! ==")

This also means that

YOU HAVE TO DRIVE ME AROUND!!!!

WAHAHHAH!!!

Guess! (:

2009-01-13T09:42:00.004+08:00

Guess where am I now?

Are you guessing?

Come on I know you can tell where I am! Haha!

Still can't guess? hmmmm......

Alright I shall tell you where I am now. (:

I AM IN FFA LECTURE! AND I'M DYING OF BOREDOM BECAUSE THE LESSON IS RATHER DRY.

Sigh...

2009-01-12T22:53:00.003+08:00

Its been 2 days since Open House ended. A lot of things happen throughout the 3 days. For me I personally feel that I have gain more confidence especially speaking in front of large crowds. Although my first attempt was horrendous, the next few tries I feel myself improving.

Anyway I was posted to CB a.k.a. Chartered Bus; Emcee. This means that schools that did not register with Ngee Ann's CT a.k.a. Customised tour, I will be emceeing to them for a total of 1 minute and showing them the video. anyway my speech is like this:

Hi Everyone! I'm Pamela, a year 1 Accountancy student from the school of Business and Accountancy also known as Sch of BA.

First and foremost, a warm welcome to Ngee Ann Polytechnic! (:

A video has been specially made for you guys, yes specially for you guys only, to let your have a inside feel of how poly life is like. Please sit back, relax ans enjoy.

(Video Screening)

Yup! So as mention above, don't miss out our special program @ the atruim

Also don't miss out a few of our highlights.

1. Course Counselling @ level 1, which is just above

2. Don't forget to grab ur goodie bags @ outspace@72

3. Catch our wonderful CCA fiesta held and the atruim

4. Last but not least, hop on to our facility tour buses for a campus tour

Once again, I'm Pamela, your emcee for today. Enjoy your day in NP! (:

Please proceed out using the front exit door and our ushers will usher you up to the CC where from there is free and easy.

So yea basically that is my speech. haha!

It was sad for the year 3 seniors as it is their last Open house. At the last hour, seniors were giving their goodbye speech. The room was filled with laughter, regrets, remorse, last words, tears & emotions. Some were crying, haha I was at my brim of crying too but I held back my tears. And when everything ended I went for dinner with Dian, Sherlyn and Jon Chia. I was practically stoning lah while eating my food. I'm so exhausted.

Well anyway when I reached home, I felt lost for a moment. I realised he was around no more. Because for pass 3 days. You went home together with me.

For the pass 3 days all sorts of funny things happened - Crazy Nights; Stupid situations; Retarded actions; Unpleasant smelling things, napping on my lap while me playing with your hair. hahah!!! Things that I normally don't experience at home with family. So when I went home after dinner. I realised that chances of it happening again is rather slim. It was then, I realised you weren't there anymore. I miss your presence here. I told that, I have no idea why but every time once you leave, I will always wish you had never and when you did, I miss you badly.

Because I feel rather attached to you as a sister. You leaving either later or now, it will still be the same as some part of me is missing. hahaha! sorry that I make it so depressing!! But I want to say now. LOL! Just in case I never have a chance to say in the future if you really do go overseas and stuff like that and me seeing you again is like finding a needle in a haystack. HAHAHAH!!! like seriously I don't want to make it sound so depressing but I don't want to every regrate not saying when your gone. I felt that I should grab hold of any opportunities now an let you know.

(Silence & awaiting)

Adrenaline rush

2009-01-07T09:02:00.003+08:00

NGEE ANN OPEN HOUSE

STARTS TOMORROW LASTING 3 DAYS

I'M FEELING BUTTERFLIES IN MY TUMMY.

ARGH!

1 Day Away

24 Hours Away

1440 Minutes Away

86,400 Seconds Away

ADRENALINE RUSH!!!!

SIEW MAI!

2009-01-05T23:59:00.006+08:00

I CALLED SZERUI A.K.A. ELYSHA

SIEW MAI

BY MISTAKE @ ECP GATHERING ON THE

2 JANUARY 2009

HAHAHAHAH!!! CATALYST TOTALLY WENT WRONG MAN!!!!!!!

2009-01-05T16:00:00.002+08:00

I'm currently sitting in Canteen 1 waiting for time to pass until 6.

Open House is 3 days away.

Feeling the Adrenaline rush now.

Faites vous vous souvenez de moi (Do you remember me)

Je me suis assis sur votre genou (I sat upon your knee)

Je vous ai écrit (I wrote to you)

Avec les fantaisies d'enfance (With childhood fantasies)

Bien, je suis tout développé maintenant (Well, I'm all grown up now)

Et ayez toujours besoin de l'aide d'une manière ou d'une autre (And still need help somehow)

Je ne suis pas un enfant (I'm not a child)

Mais mon coeur peut toujours rêver (But my heart still can dream)

Comme les enfants nous avons cru (As children we believed)

La vue grandest pour voir (The grandest sight to see)

Était quelque chose de joli (Was something lovely)

Emballé au-dessous de notre arbre (Wrapped beneath our tree)

Bien le ciel sait seulement (Well heaven only knows)

Ces paquets et révérences (That packages and bows)

Ainsi voici mon désir de toute une vie (So here's my lifelong wish)

Ma liste développée de Noël (My grown up christmas list)

Juste pour être son, même s'il est depuis un jour.

Ainsi voici mon désir de toute une vie (So here's my lifelong wish)

Ma liste développée de Noël (My grown up christmas list)

ECP Gathering

2009-01-04T22:16:00.012+08:00

I went to east coast park for a gathering. Seconday school. Kinda miss the old group of friends.

The crazy us.

The manipulative us.

The always slack from time to time but work our ass for us.

The tend to get in r/s within our grp us.

haha! those were the days.

Everything started off slow

Girls being the usual let the guys do the work

Ben, Nat, Rui

Nat, Me, Rui

Girls as usual waits for food.

Nat being unglam!

John carrying me. ahah! Couple gone wrong.

Me, John, Rui

I love these shots! Credit to me!

Rui, Jordan, Rene, Yh

So basically i shot most of the pics. shot a total of 200 plus close 300.

We should organise one more soon!!! (:

New Year Resolution

2009-01-04T21:24:00.002+08:00

HAVE A BLASTING 2009 EVERYONE!

Issues that have to be done this year

Be focus on task at hand
Save up for digital cam
Have sufficient time for myself
Have sufficient time for my dance
Have sufficient air to breath

LASTLY

My New Year Resolution for myself is

TO HAVE TOTAL CONTROL OF MY FEELINGS.

DON'T LET MY HEART RULE OVER ME

NO MATTER HOW MUCH I FEEL LIKE CRYING

NO MATTER HOW DEPRESS I'M

NO MATTER HOW MUCH HATRED I'M FEELING

NO MATTER HOW MUCH LONGING I WANT FOR HIM

NO MATTER HOW MUCH FAILURE I'M FACING

NO MATTER HOW MUCH ATTACHED FEELINGS I HAVE HIM

NO MATTER HOW MUCH ATTENTION I WANT FROM HIM.

NO MATTER HOW MUCH I DEMAND FROM HIM

NO MATTER WHAT FANTASIES I'M LIVING IN, WAKE UP!

Be my old self.

Pam find back the old you.

Find back the STRONG, INDEPENDENT, DISCIPLINE, BUBBLY & OUTGOING Pam.

Find back the old Pam when she used to be able to hide her emotions from time to time.

This is my New Year Resolution for myself this 2009.

2008-12-14T09:44:00.002+08:00

Few things to update and say.

Im so glad that Common test is finally over. I am able to get my rest. The past week was horrendious! I had little sleep and was at my brim. I still remember. on 10 Dec, even at 1 am in the morning was still studying for MIEC (Mircoeconomics) paper. I was about to tear. So exhausted yet I cannot sleep. Literally, you can feel yourself reaching your ends already but you still know that deep inside you, you have to continue. Finally at 130, I really can't take it. I went to bed. MIEC paper was so tricky! I went in with hope of doing well. I came out with low moral instead. Sigh. Okay since its already done, I should'nt pounder over it. Decided to concentrate on ITB. At first was alright when it closer to 11 pm. I was so tired and I CANNOT SLEEP! I was telling him that I cannot take it anymore! I want to cry but I so tired that I cant seem to cry! How ironic it can be! I badly needed a hug for comfort. Just to be held for a moment. After awhile, he had headache and have needed to sleep. Told me to hang on, last paper already! And I can do it! When he sees me tml, he'll give me BIG hug! and asked me to smile for him. So sweet! Even being I tired and stressed out, I can feel that fuzzy feeling tinggling inside of me. (:

Ytd I had a pre xmas party with my aunites and uncles! Omgosh, all my cousins are TALL! I feel so small! My sec one cousin and pri 6 cousin are 170 plus; Im only 156! LOL See the difference in gap. So surprised! Well anyway, hahaha Im still happing being who I am.

2008-12-05T22:14:00.002+08:00

If only I have one wish, I wish for time to stop.
If only I have one wish, I wish to spent one full day with you.
If only I have one wish, I wish for you to take my hand & lead the way.
If only I have one wish, I wish for your soft voice whisper swiftly into my ear.
If only I have one wish, I wish for you to break the walls & enter my heart
If only I have one wish, I wish for you to draw me near & hold me tight like there's no tomorrow.
If only I have one wish, I wish Iam yours, truely yours.

HOWEVER

If only I have THIS one wish, I wish I have never met you.

We started off as strangers then soon became friends.
you're the first one I think of when I wake up and last one I think of before I go to sleep
I love you so much I wish you never had to leave.

EVERYTHING, our topics, dumb jokes awkward moments
and all the laughter just makes me fall in love with you more.
you give me butterflies when you say the sweetest things.
but when you act like the one I didn't fall in love with...
it makes me wonder are you the one.

Old School

2008-11-30T00:35:00.001+08:00

MUGGING SEASON HAS STARTED OFFICALLY TODAY
HAHAHA!
SOOOOOOO OLD SCHOOL =="

aime. tu me manques & je t'aime is what she dearly wants to says to him.

Facts about pad & tampons? Read

2008-11-28T00:14:00.002+08:00

If you are a woman and use pads, but especially if you use tampons, read this inform other woman. For the men who are reading this, please tell it to your friends, significant others, sisters, mothers, daughters, etc.) Thanks!

Check the labels of the sanitary pads or tampons that you are going to buy the next time and see whether you spot any of the familiar signs stated in this post.

No wonder so many women in the world suffer from cervical cancer and womb tumors. Have you heard that tampon makers include asbestos in tampons? Why would they do this?

Because asbestos makes you bleed more, if you bleed more, you're going to need to use more. Why isn't this against the law since asbestos is so dangerous? Because the powers that be, in all their wisdom (not), did not consider tampons as being ingested, and, therefore, didn't consider them illegal or dangerous.

This month's Essence magazine has small article about this and they mention two manufacturers of a cotton tampon alternative. The companies are: Organic Essentials @1-800) 765-6491 and Terra Femme @(800)755-0212.

A woman getting her Ph.D. at University of Colorado at Boulder sent the following: 'I am writing this because women are not being informed about the dangers of something most of us use: tampons. I am taking a class this month and I have been learning a lot about biology and women, including much about feminine hygiene. Recently we have learned that tampons are actually dangerous (for other reasons than TSS). I'll tell you this - after learning about this in our class, most of the females wound up feeling angry and upset with the tampon industry, and I for one, am going to do something about it To start, I want to inform everyone I can, and email is the fastest way that I know

HERE IS THE SCOOP:

Tampons contain two things that are potentially harmful: Rayon (for absorbency), and dioxin (a chemical used in bleaching the products). The tampon industry is convinced that we, as women, need bleached white products in order to view the product as pure and clean. The problem here is that the dioxin, which is produced in this bleaching process, can lead to very harmful problems for a woman. Dioxin is potentially carcinogenic cancer-associated)and is toxic to the immune and reproductive systems. It has also been linked to endometriosis and lower sperm counts for men. For both sexes, it breaks down the immune system.

Last September, the Environmental Protection Agency (EPA) reported that there really is no set 'acceptable' level of exposure to dioxin given that it is cumulative and slow to disintegrate. The real danger comes from repeated contact Karen Couppert 'Pulling the Plug on the Tampon Industry'). I'd say using about 4-5 tampons a day, five days a month, for 38 menstruating years is 'repeated contact', wouldn't you? Rayon contributes to the danger of tampons and dioxin because it is a highly absorbent substance. Therefore, when fibers from the tampons are left behind in the vagina (as usually occurs), it creates a breeding ground for the dioxin. It also stays in a lot longer than it would with just cotton tampons. This is also the reason why TSS (toxic shock syndrome) occurs.

WHAT ARE THE ALTERNATIVES?

Using feminine hygiene products that aren't bleached and that are all cotton. Other feminine hygiene products(pads/napkins) contain dioxin as well, but they are not nearly as dangerous since they are not in direct contact with the vagina. The pads/napkins need to stop being bleached, but, obviously, tampons are the most dangerous.So, what can you do if you can't give up using tampons? Use tampons that are made from 100% cotton, and that are UNBLEACHED. Unfortunately, there are very few companies that make these safe tampons. They are usually only found in health food stores.Countries all over the w orld ( Sweden , Germany , British Columbia , etc.) have demanded a switch to this safer tampon, while the U.S. has decided to keep us in the dark about it. In 1989, activists in England mounted a campaign against chlorine bleaching. Six weeks and 50,000 letters later, the makers of sanitary products switched to oxygen bleaching (one of the green methods available) (MS magazine, May/June 1995).

WHAT TO DO NOW:

Tell people. Everyone. Inform them. We are being manipulated by this industry and the government, let's do something about it! Please write to the companies: Tampax(Tambrands), Playtex, O.B., Kotex. Call the 800 numbers listed on the boxes. Let them know that we demand a safe product ALL COTTON UNBLEACHED TAMPONS.

AND FOR THOSE OF US WHO USE SANITARY NAPKINS/PADS:IF u ever wondered what were the ingredients that made popular brands so 'free and light and carefree', well here's the bit:The material that makes the pad so paper THIN, is cellulose gel. YEap, it's not even cotton!!!!!!DO NOT wear the same pad for more than 3 hours of a maximum!!! After this duration, the genital area is prone to bacterial action and may result in cervical cancer or other complications!!!!!!!!!!REMEMBER! NEVER NEVER NEVER WEAR THE SAME PAD FOR MORE THAN 3 HOURS!!!!

SO yes, please pass on this message to as many women as possible and save lives!!!!!!!!!!

References:1 Women Health Issues - Thrush

Cake Shop (:

2008-11-27T22:34:00.008+08:00

Hey guys, this post is about this cake shop that I really really LOVE like seriously it's that good. It maybe pricey, BUT BUT I feel its worth the price. (: If there is no such thing as heart disease, obesity, I don't mind eating it everyday. haha! okay maybe not everyday but twice a week? I don't know. Well anyway I will be posting the website, address and its details down. so do order from there if your have anything to celebrate for. (:

Reminiscing the good old days where you indulge yourself in sweet cakes?

Your sweet tooth aching in pain, yearning for something sweet to bite on?

The Patissier

a place where you can indulge in mouth watering cakes (:

There you have it.

A picture paints a thousand words.

Cant wait to get your hands on it?

Wait no longer!!

Website: http://www.thepatissier.com/

Addresses:

The Patissier LLP

18 Ann Siang Road, #01-01

Singapore 069698

Tel: 6220 5565

Business hours:

Monday ~ Friday: 10.30 am ~ 7pm

Saturday & Sunday : Close

Public Holiday: Close

4 Mohamed Sultan Road, #01-01

Singapore 238955

Tel: 6737 3369

Business hours:

Monday ~ Friday: 10.30 am ~ 7pm

Saturday & Sunday: 10.30 ~ 5pm

Public holiday: Close

Like I said above, I'm doing this not for advertising purposes but I want to share the joy I experience while indulging myself in these cakes. I hope your will have you moments of joy too. (:

P.S. everything above is taken from The Patissier's brochure.

Gratitude

2008-11-26T10:22:00.010+08:00

Where to start. I have quite a number of things I want to say.

Last Thursday; the last night
I got freaked out by you when I accidentally dozed off on the couch. When I woke up few mins later all i see was you face 5cm away from mine. the next thing you said was go and sleep. haha! i think i was just to tired to rebuttal so i just nodded my head, walked towards my bed and bury myself under the covers. I woke up halfway when you were covering me cos my blanket rolled down until waist level. at the same time placed the bolster under my arms. after that i dozed back for a few seconds UNTIL when you switch off the lights i pop up from bed. I THINK I WOKE UP AGAIN! LOL unless im dreaming. hah! anyway i have no idea why man but ya. you noticed and walked towards me and asked why? I answered with a small moan saying nothing and i went back to sleep. HAHAH! funny! LOL but anyway what i wanted to say was you were really sweet.

When i woke up the first time i kinda gleams into you eyes for awhile ,i couldn't see clearly cos i was w/o my glasses but i think I saw care & concern shimmering out from your eyes. aww so sweet. haha! but then again.
I'm touch by your actions.
Thank you

Last Saturday & Sunday

I met my bestie, she is like a sister to me and I told her I confused if I'm liking someone. Many people told me not to fall for him cos he is not so simple. While at anyway case, she added that I have to look within myself and find the answers I'm seeking for. After a while she added, "Pam, you just like playing with fire and always look for danger." I kept silent for a while and though back. Actually what she says does makes sense. But what to do? haha! I'm looking for a roller coaster ride.

I was on MSN with you and our topics were about everything and literally everything. So I told you what my sister told me; ahhah! and you were asking me what kinda of fire. So ya that was how the topics heated up. LOL. I told you that I THINK I'm falling for someone but I'm confused with the feeling I'm having. You asked who but all i said was sorry, i need to confirm my feelings first then PERHAPS i will let you know. So I changed the topic to ask about you. asking if you have anyone in mind; hahaaa what you said was, you never though about liking or looking for some one now. Now that you have all your friends, gf is not what you have been thinking about. so I just left it that way not pursuing anymore. it was after you said this i had this weird warm feeling in my heart.

You said i was too innocent. as for you, you don't even want to hurt me. You just can't bare to hurt me.

When I heard it, i was lost for words. I was shocked like seriously shocked. You said you bully me, but you care. I added saying that you seem to care for everyone you bully. You said I'm one who you pays more attention to. You added that I have your word, no matter how much I don't know about you, you wont play me out. In actual fact, its not that i do not trust you, or maybe its just that I really do not know you well enough to judge you.
I do trust you, but for a player to say this, I'm just surprised.

Thank you is all that I want to say.

I miss you company here; especially during the night.
The times you acted like a kid just made me grow more fond towards you. It made me want to protect you somehow. It made me want to hold you so tightly, to hold you safe and sound from all you troubles. I don't mind being your human pillow to cry on or to hold on. oh my i sound like a granny. ==" I just want you to know that I will be there for you no matter what happens ya. (:
haha! if your reading this i think you'll be laughing at me now.

I used to say you were a hard nut to crack and when you are ready you will eventually step out of your safety zone. I didn't expect you to crack to fast. Last night you confesses to many things at one shot! I was surprised cos judging from you personality and character, i though you would have done it slowly. But I;m glad you did. I appreciated that. Really, I do. I'm glad to be there and have rendered a listening ear for you.

Just remember, I'll be here for you no matter what happens (:

You gave my your word before; So now i give you mine.

You have my word.

Not from a friend to a friend

Neither is it from a sibling to a sibling

But to one who just need a hug.

RED Camp 5

2008-11-22T09:23:00.005+08:00

Ah it's finally over. The amazing RED Camp 5. A 3 days day camp catered to secondary school students to explore what NP is about. I would admit, this 3 days were the best! Thanks to everyone who made my RED camp 5 experience so phenomenal. LOVE YOU GUYS. the hardwork, the support, the wildness, the everything to made this a possible OUTSTANDING event!

Thanks to our Staff mentors (SMs): Jane & Annie
Thanks to our Chief SLs: Nicolette, Sam & Henry
Thanks to all SLs:
Gerald, Qian Hua, Wei Quan, Serene, Keenan, Jon Chia, Tan Xin Ying, Keann, Jocelyn, Xue Zhi, Sean, Goh Xin Ying, Antoinette, Faith, Chin Koon, Sarah Nat, Devan, Shirley, Azizah, Shili, Daryl, Ning, Shafik, Elieen, Rox, Dian, Sylvester, Deborah, Celestia, Mark K.

SPECIAL SPECIAL THANK TO SUB-TRIBE 10:
Brandon, my ever-so hyperactive partner who is like me this red camp 5 having to go missing from our sub groups for performance.
Shamus, the barker boy who i never talk to at first. but HEY he is like super funny and so ON for everything and xin ku ni for the video having to stay up late @the LOFT to do fix the video together with the other video comm people. OHHH F.Y.I. he had to dress up as Salior moon.
Sharini, the sweetest girl i have seen. thank sweetie for covering up for me and brandon at time we have to leave half way throughout the cluster program. Thank you.

NOT FORGETTING THE BEST APACHE CAMPERS! Without your guys, red camp 5 never could have been great!

From the bottom of my heart, Brandon, Shamus, Sharini, and everyone else especially campers thank you for making RED Camp 5 the Greatest camp ever. Being a red camper before and now being an SL, I realised how important our roles are.

To lead is to serve.

Hey guys do take care of yourselves, drink lots of water and rest! haha and i offically lost my voice. We were specially hand picked because we had the something in us that campers look up to us. Campers enjoyed RED camp because of all of us.

Stay positive,

Campers enthusiam is our motivation.

And remember,

Once and Apache always and Apache

HAHAH! before i fogetten.

"THANK YOU" TO THOSE WHO SABO-ED ME INTO DANCING WITH BRANDON HALFWAY THOUGH MEAL TIME!!!

if i haven eaten its fine, but seriously guys! i ALMOST PUKE!

P.S. i seriously have to catch up with my studies.

Stayed & left.

That's actually how fast the clock went by.

I wish time can be slowed down...

And your leaving again soon.

but perhaps its a good thing

i may know the truth by then.

November Babies

2008-11-08T22:43:00.003+08:00

Busy mth man! RED camp is like coming in 10 more days!!!

haha anyway this mth have lots of b'days lah

1st Nov: Henry

2nd Nov: Nikki

4th Nov: my dear brother Alaster

6th Nov: my dear bro's gf to be or not Gwen

8th Nov: Deborah

DEBORAH!!!

IF YOU ARE READING THIS

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY

17th BIRTHDAY SWEETIE!!

LOTS OF LOVE!!!!!!!

XOXO

2008-11-04T16:51:00.000+08:00

Pam's green with jealousy.

Posted

2008-11-02T12:13:00.003+08:00

Nthing on today except celebrating my brother's early b'day. having bbq & steamboat at home, just a family dinner inclusive of Gwen. (:

P.S. SzeRui if ur ever reading this. if i ever have my wordpress link up here in any of the post means I have posted sth. hahah! but hopefully u dont see the link too often. why? because i cant be forever so depressing. hahah!!! okay i think i better stop talking gribrish.

http://www.pamelaspasswordprotected.wordpress.com/

LOVES

2008-11-01T16:55:00.003+08:00

I wish somehow i can split myself into 3. WHY!?

1. Ytd the apaches went to NP@45 which is held in sch. i think it was to celebrate Halloween.
2. At the same time, the BA Society ppl were there as well. at 4 they had this cheering competition. BUT DUE TO MAEK UP CLASS.. i cant go.
3. the dancesports ppl had a performance AND IF IT WERENT FOR THE MAKE UP CLASSES. I WILL BE PERFORMING!

See how depressing my life is. hmm okay i wont say depressing. more like they just HAPPEN TO BE ALL AT THE SAME TIME.

2008-10-31T07:21:00.000+08:00

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you.

New Blog

2008-10-30T23:24:00.002+08:00

Hi guys I have created a new blog using wordpress. BUT dont worry this is still going to be the main blog. hahah! the other one is gonna be in used rarely. anyway here is the new link.
http://pamelaspasswordprotected.wordpress.com

anyway FYI. it only for ppl with passwords. I think its kinda clear by seeing the URL.

2008-10-30T07:20:00.001+08:00

Can you tell me
How can one miss what she's never had
How could I reminisce when there is no past
How could I have memories of being happy with you
Could someone tell me how can this be
How could my mind pull up incidents
Recall dates and times that never happened
How could we celebrate a love that's too late
And how could I really mean the words I'm about to say.

2008-10-29T10:03:00.002+08:00

it been rather busy for me. red camp is approaching. BA's Amazing race is coming too. another dancesports competition is coming too. LOL im LIKE SOOOOOOOOOO DEAD! LOL how to multitask to many things red camp is 19 to 21 NOV. so from NOW UNTIL THEN I PRACTICALLY HAVE TO STAY BACK LATE IN SCHOOL! some more i have make up classes. thanks to the vacation on monday 27-oct. lol all classes have to make up. so i end classes close to 6 everyday. HENG classes today is at 1. LOL but i will be meeting my friend to gt FBT shorts. hmm OHHHHH and ytd dance was at 630. but i told brandon i will be going late cos i had to shoot the mass dance video for red camp. and it drag and drag and drag AND DRAGGGG until like 735. ==" and lessons ends abt 800 or 810. zzzz. imagine how long i went for dance. 10 to 15 mins and POOF. im gone from there already ==" but we cant blame the shooting as well. cos block 56's room is horribily small and cant seem to fit most of us in. ahhaa. and i tore a hole in my dance skirt. lol because my heel caught on to the back of my skirt. LOL i better hurry sew up the hole. ==" but seriously i need a new skirt too. the other day roysten was talking to me over msn. so i asked him how was the stay at the loft. haha cos BA society had a camp called MSA camp. my mom din let me go. so im quite pissed and sad. LOL but then again BAMP is coming up. another camp!! yeppie! okay anyway he was talking to me asking me to get involve withe the upcoming events too. i was like. erm i want to but seriously and SERIOUSLY SPEAKING im super packed. 1stly is because of upcoming red camp; 2ndly is bloody make up classes; 3rdly is assignments as well as projects; and I THINK lastly will be the mass dance video shooting and skit practice. ==" i know that i have been skipping BA stuff. im really sorry but im really busy. even the NP green Bazzar thing, i wanted to go. but i have classes to attend. anyway bottom line is tat i want to go. but seems like a lot of thing have clashes. i really do hope ur guys understand.

I wanna be want who you believe

There is a piece of me who leaves when you're gone

2008-10-26T00:42:00.002+08:00

Sometimes it takes a different kind of dream to make you smile.
Sometimes we need another helping hand to show the ways.
Sometimes it seems impossible and that's why we pray
Now I'm all by myself wondering where is love or should i just give up.
Life falls down on me, cuts into my soul
But I know I got the strength to make it through it all
Because I'm still standing tall breaking through this wall
I'm gonna give my all.

Be with me. Help me dance my worries away.
One dance. One last dance would do.

I'm sorry but recently I've been really physically & mentally exhausted.
Please bare with me random-emotional outbreak.

A story that will always and forever be a dream

2008-10-21T21:42:00.003+08:00

Heart don't fail me now. Courage don't desert me, don't turn back now that we're here. People always say life is full of choices. No one ever mentions fear or how the road can seem so long;how the world can seem so vast; Courage see me through heart I am trusting you. On this journey to the past.

Hope.

Love.

Family.

Recently I feel super dejected. I have no idea why. Great! Now I'm like super emotional. I have been like that. I have been lying to myself; telling myself that it's okay, he is just someone I'm really close to. Somehow the closer we get, the more I get pulled into the circle of love. I know that he is someone that I can't be together with. Don't ask me why, it's just like this. Can life get any better? I really want to be with you all, supporting you all the way. One way or another I yearn for your touch, your hold. It sounds stupid. I enjoy your presence and company. I don't mind starting a new chapter of my life with you. I want to be there for you. I want to be your everything. But when I saw the way you handle girls is like "WOW", I'm impressed but all I see is green. Green with jealousy but not envy...

In the end of the day, it will all turn out to be dreams.
I'm falling for you but I don't want to.

Share $25

2008-10-11T23:41:00.002+08:00

Life is relatively simple. It's the human nature that twist and turns it around making so complex and complicated. Anyway, I shall be a story teller today. A short and sweet story about $25, a son and his father.

A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door.

SON: 'Daddy, may I ask you a question?'

DAD: 'Yeah sure, what it is?' replied the man.

SON: 'Daddy, how much do you make an hour?'

DAD: 'That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?' the man said angrily.

SON: 'I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?'

DAD: 'If you must know, I make $50 an hour.'

SON: 'Oh,' the little boy replied, with his head down.

SON: 'Daddy, may I please borrow $25?'

The father was furious, 'If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I don't work hard everyday for such childish frivolities.'

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.

The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?

After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down , and started to think:

Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $25.00 and he really didn't ask for money very often The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.

'Are you asleep, son?'

He asked. 'No daddy, I'm awake,' replied the boy.

'I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier' said the man. 'It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $25 you asked for.'

The little boy sat straight up, smiling. 'Oh, thank you daddy!' he yelled. Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills.

The man saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again.

The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his father.

'Why do you want more money if you already have some?' the father grumbled.

'Because I didn't have enough, but now I do,' the little boy replied.

'Daddy, I have $50 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.'

The father was crushed. He put his arms around his little son, and he begged for his forgiveness.

It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts.

2008-10-09T21:37:00.003+08:00

alot of things have happent for the past few days and i seriously have no time to update my blog. just saw kenny recently and he was like UPDATE UR BLOG!. then i was like huh?. kinda blur for the moment. ok anyway recently was the SL camp. and i ended camp today. it was suppose to be a 3 day 2 night thing but in the end they changed it to 2 days 1 night. well anyway funny things happen during the camp and stuff. we cheered and we bonded and we made out own tribe identities and banners! we also had our MASS DANCE! the movements were really simple BUT when the song was played, it was hard to catch. haha i find that ytd night was super funny but kind annoying for a while. all our tribe member met at our room 02-01. its called the tribe room. haha so a few of us din have to move. we practice our cheers up until 2 close 3 am in the morning. all of us were to exhausted! but we couldnt sleep. cos some of us ordered mac. deb and i went to the guys room cos the food somehow ended up there. so we stayed there for food! while chilling and relaxing there for a while. Xue Zhi, Gerald, Deb and i ended up being super high! ahaha. Deb and her NRA, me and my pillow. ==" yea apparently Jon Chia managed to sleep outside with us making so much noise. oh Brandon went to bed too. haha cos he was to tired already. soon after which adam and khai dan came in, they just disappeared to one of the rooms. after a while adam came out, asking us is sarah nat here. we were like.. erm.. nope. i told deb after 5 mins we go back to our rooms. and at exactly 3 mins later, adam say im going down to find sarah nat. i looked and deb. hahah and we know what is going on in our minds. anyway bottom like is Both Deb and I crash the guys room. =="

MAMMA MIA

2008-09-20T20:02:00.004+08:00

okay. i have no idea what just happen ytd night. All of a sudden, well, EVERYONE STARTS ASKING AM I FREE TO GO CHURCH. haha but then i was busy today. Family Day (: Yeappies!! (: im soooo gonna be home alone for i think ard 3 weeks cos my maid went back to her hometown to celebrate Hari Raya with her family members. sooo yeap. for 3 weeks i have to be independent and make my own breakfast which i highly think that im gonna burn it ==" well, practice makes perfect they say. anyway my parents went out first to drop off my maid at the airport today. and then i met them at vivo city at 1++. i was late. SO WERE THEY! hhaha! okay i feel super mean. my mom just gt her new phone. WAHHH i want one too. but its W980. hurhur. super cool walkman phone. i shall wait patiently until my 2 yrs plan is up. and then HAHAHA~ *HINTS HINTS evil grins. hmm okay we catch a movie too. its called MAMMA MIA!! woot~ GO CATCH IT! I LOVE IT. im so so soooooooo crazy over it now. after mamma mia syndrom. =.=

and im having canadian pizza for dinner. currently waiting for it to arrive too like in 35 mins. :D

OHHH and good luck matt!!! haha i know im like 4 hrs 12 mins late in wishing u good luck! hahaha.

2008-09-15T09:17:00.003+08:00

i just like woke up lah! I cant sleep cos of results. well anyway im SOOO glad that i passed. I was so worried that i may fail any modules. My first sem is like tat. the next few sem have to work hard to pull the overall marks up. hmm good luck to me! (:

Once bitten twice shy

2008-09-12T22:20:00.000+08:00

I think, I'm falling into it once again.

Treasure

2008-09-09T22:01:00.002+08:00

Every second, Every minute, Every hour, Everyday, Every month, Every year.
It may sound really corny and cheesey but treasure every bit of it. You'll never know what might happen next.

Today i received drastic news. My mother's friends, who basically I call her auntie, has just pass on. She has a heart of an angel. I sit in my close trapped up in a ball, going through old letters containing so many secrets, reading old notes that were so close to being taken up by teachers, looking through pictures that were left to be forgotten, trying to forget the memories that still haunt me in my sleep, a familiar face reminds me of so much, I had her buried in my mind before the dirt even covered her casket, I should have gone too, I was supposed to be with her when she died, I come across this note, her named signed at the bottom, oh, the memories we had, still overcome by the last one, she shouldn't have been lying on that gurney, covered with all those machines, they were supposed to save her, instead I killed her in my mind, a cold chill ran down my spine, I had the feeling of being watched, and when I turned, the image of that familiar face.

quick updates

2008-09-07T09:29:00.003+08:00

Okayyy I think it been quite a while I haven updated anything. The last update was another post about the ninjas. hmm. Alright here goes. (:

04.09.08

Basically nothing much happen this day. Only that I returned to school at night for CCA. OHHH I remembered something. I woke up at 12. =="

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WANXIN (:

05.09.08

I was suppose to go back to school for the Student Leader Recruitment Drive for RED Camp breifing BUT they mail me super late and I already have an appointment with the Chiropractor. Haha. As well as a date with my hairstylist. I have to go back to the doc after 1 month. haha. you can see the improvement alright although it is just 1 month. i used to go back every week. imagine how bad my back was. Yes i have back bone problem. It runs in my dad's side of the family. BUT it will never stop me for my passion for dance! (: so yeap anyway ICUT MY HAIR SHORT! and frankly speaking it looks like an apple. when i told jon chia abt it, he was like "wth, ur losing all ur image". "dotz, i gt no comments" was my reply. haha well ya and i went home.

06.09.08

OKAYYY. I had a BA society SC trial. haha. so we had to go to sentosa for the trial. u know there was a dancesports outing as well! i wanted to go for the dancesports one! but jeral said tat it was compulsory to go for the BA society thing. cos th actually SC outing is on the 4th oct. SO i went for the BA society one. anyway we were split into 2 grps at the start. One grp in red the other in blue. i was in the blue grp. we were given our first clue at vivo city roof top and we headed out to sentosa. YAY! so our first clue had 4 pictures and ONLY 1 of the picture was our clue.=='' but it was a very obvious clue. and it was at "Images of Singapore" there already right there were a 8x8 pieces of paper on the floor. then we look at it first thing that came to our head was memory game. BUT we could see the print from the back of the paper. o.O BUT we had to get a set of "cards" then we win one set. Eg. we have to remeber where 3hearts, 3clubs, 3 spades, 3 diamonds is and when it is our turn, we open all at the same time and we win one set. so yeap this is how the game went. anyway the 2nd station we were asked to stand at one straight line, with out legs tied to the other party and we have to walk to the other end. AND I SAW THE DANCESPORT PEOPLE! okay nvm the 3rd station we went back all the way to the tram station. and we played an aminal game. 4th station we went to fine ming jun. the game is we had to gather itmes that meet the money requirement. LAST Station is at palawan beach. IMAGINE HOW FAR IS THAT FROM WHERE WE ARE! so we went there and i had no idea what the game is abt. so yea basically that was how it was spent. Kinda boring right. But then GOOD JOBS TO ALL WHO MAKE AND CREATED THE GAMES! THREE CHEERS FOR THEM (: i know its not easy creating one.

07.09.08

I HAVE NINJAS OUTING TODAY! I can't wait! (: I miss them all cute little muffin cakes!

2008-09-03T10:00:00.000+08:00

It's currently 10a.m. and 2 days after I came back from YLA 3. Seriously the good memories are so hard to forget, especially the cute little muffin cakes!! When I told Clement and Cheng Yi about tat name, all they started to think was food. The best thing was Clement said that if Kenny heard about it, he would have ate them all up. =="

Ninjas,

We are a family now, a whole,

Of which you are a part,

And you are just as much my child

As any in my heart.

I do not love you differently,

Nor would I give up less

Of all that life has given me

To bring you happiness.

There is no limit to my love,

No boundary you might cross,

No price you might be asked to pay,

No need to fear its loss.

We are now one, all of us,

Windows of one home.

As long as I have life and breath,

You'll never be alone.

It's 2 more hours before I head down to bugis. (:

YLA 3!

2008-08-31T21:45:00.002+08:00

hello people! I'm back from YLA 3 camp. Okay F.Y.I YLA refers to Youth Leadership Academy. Its the 3rd camp Ngee Ann has organised for students. Anyways i was in the Ninjas! NINJAS YOU GUYS RULE MAN! haha sorry arpache members but have no fear! cos rmb we are allies! super duper funny lah. there were campers from Dunearn Sec, Mayflower Sec and last but not least St. Andrews! YLA 3 WOULD HAVE NEVER BEEN SO FUN WITHOUT YOU GUYS HERE!! thank you everyone! Your hardwork which your have put in for our final performance on the last day! The enthusiasm, cheerfulness, bubbly-ness from each and everyone of you have made this possible in us winning the MOST WILD-DESS TRIBE! At the same time, CONGRATULATIONS to ARPACHES ON WINNING THE BEST OVERALL FOR YLA3~ yay!! (: so happy for them.

TO ALL NINJAS! I LOVE YOU ALL PEEPS OKAY!

You all make this group so HAPPENING!~

They say it takes a minute

To find a special person

An hour to appreciate them

A day to love them

But an entire life to forget them.

And Ninja Campers you all are that special person. (:

updates

2008-08-28T10:02:00.002+08:00

okkkkkkkkaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy... its gonna be a LONG update today. hmm basically after the 12 Aug I was plain mugging for my finals for this current sem.

I STAYED UP ONE WHOLE BLOODY NIGHT TO FREAKING MUG FOR BUSINESS LAW!! Lawyer-wannabe? CRAP!

21.08.08

okay anyway. after ther 21st which was my last paper. whoot! but i cannot rest!! waahhhh dance comp was in a few days time. shiver... :S after paper i went for dance practice in FULL DRESS REHERSAL! it was so wierd for a while cos majority of the ppl ther were guyss!!! im a very shy person. haha i think ppl who knows me will go like. wth. pam? are u speaking rubbish for a moment?? okay tat day after self-practice. i went to chinatown with jos, brandon and gino to get my jewels for my dress. apparently, gino said is BEST to stone it. cos my dress was SUPER PLAIN! okay and when we went there, ALL THE SHOPS THAT SELL THE JEWELS WERE CLOSE! SO GRRR! waste my trip.

22.08.08

i went down to chinatown really really REALLY early in the morning (i left my house at 10 in the morning and im living and bukit gombak; see how early was my early. LOL) and i was rushing like crazy. i asked sten to accompany me. he said he was gonna be late. so i told him i will get the stones first. i reached chinatown at 1055 and all in all i took 5 mins to buy my stuff and went back to meet sten. haha see how rush i was. after tat i headed to far east to look for other stuff to wear on the dance floor. i was practically running but i wasnt okay. more like REAL quick walk. I BOUGHT A DRESS THERE TOO!! LOL THE DRESS IS SUPER SWEEEEETTTT~ AND ADORABLE~~ (: haha anyway my aim wa to reached home slightly past and 2 and you know what i did!!! i had to stone my dress because i have dinner at night. SEE THE PICTURE. I WAS FREAKNG IN A HURRY AND FULLY MAKING USE OF MY TIME! oh and thank you sten for helping me stone my dress. if nt surely i cannot finish in time man!.

THANK YOU STENPHEL!

(are you happy that i thank you now?=.=) haha!

fast forward to night time. was at suntec! haha okay after dinner i came home. and WANTED TO stone cos everytime i lift up my dress, the stones start to drop. how annoying is that! my mother help me to re-stone most of the stuff. haha thank you mom! while i had to continue packing my baggage. when she finished stone she started shaking the dress AS IF THERE WAS NO TOMORROW =.= that was how hard she shoke. and thus haha no stones drop out! it was 1 am in the morning by the time everything finished. and i K.O. straight after i hit my bed.

P.S. I HAD TO WAKE UP AT 6 IN THE MORNING! cos we are meeting at 7. =="

23.08.08; 24.08.08; 25.08.08

MALAYSIA HERE I COME!

oookkkkaaayyyy maybe i shouldnt sound so excited. cos i was super exhausted when i met everyone in the morning. oh FYI only 5 couples went plus our mentor. yeap. oh i have to get my full make up set. i din know that we actually had to use so much make-up. dance the same dance for 3 rounds. gino & edna, me and brandon went into the finals. haaha so excited.

WE WON 3rd! haha so cool lah! my first com and in an international dance com somemore we won third!! haha i was super shocked! I GT A CERT AND MEDAL!! weee~~ LOL. we make a new shirt call

"DANGER CERTIFIED DANCER"

haha super nice lah!

okay so basically this is wat happen during tha past few days which somehow seem more like weeks. =="

Offically 18!

2008-08-12T09:23:00.003+08:00

okay. hmm i haven been posting for a while.

09.08.08
national day i went out with my sec sch friends. we just went out to catch up with one another. wheni saw nat and rui i was over the moon but when i saw the rest of them, it just didn't felt right. now when i think back i feel like crying. we were never the same as how we were in sec school. maybe what others say is true, when people move on, they may never remember the times spent together. so ya i lleft them halfway cos i had to go to sengkang for prayer. then after prayer i rush back to meet them and bugis. apprently they were at arab street trying out see-sha. i find the ambience there at night super spooky. lucky john was nice and met me at bugis and walk be there. but still if felt like any moment ppl can just pounce on you. haha so finally when i manageed to find them. i feel safer. when yh ask how was it. i said it was a new experience but i dont really like the environment cos it didnt fell safe. so we just catch up here and there then the guys wanted to drink the girls went home cos its was freaking 10 plus close 11. by the time i reached home was 15 mins before 12. LOL. i feel bad. reaching home later and later each day.

10.08.08
i went out with faith, brandon and sten to look for my dance dress. we went to far east plaze's shop and i found it! haha but i never get it yet. cos im still deciding! its so hard to decide!!!! i love both dresses! should i get both?? hmm poundering. after that ard 3 plus we left to sten's place for bbq while faith went to meet her friend at holand village. thank you stenphel, jolin and brandon for the suprise party the other day, especially stenphel. haha i was totally taken back when u brought the cake in the room. haha it was just so comical that u was acutally trying to chase us to the roof garden when we were moaning and groaning that its too comfortable in your room. haha this tells u never to switch on the air conditional when we are there and u'll have problem chasing us out. *grins* and the gift was not required but then thank you! (: from the bottom of my heart thank you. OHH! and we play taboo!! haha super funny game. because of this game we became super high lah! haha all of us making funny actions and everything. haha. after that stenphel MANAGED to chase us up into the roof garden. so we just sat there and chit chat. initially we play true or dare and then a qn was ask. haha EVERYONE had to answer. "Who will you shoot, shag, marry" haha and the category was only in dancesports. and in the end after that qn we never really play true or dare. we just started talking abt our life. the best thing is we have talk abt our life for 1 hr!! we said we wanted to go but in the end we went back to sten's room to play taboo. =.=" so all of us left officially at 11. and guess what i took an hour to reach home!! because he was staying at serangoon. ahhh!!! the entire journey was so tiring lah!! i reached home at 12.15. my record the whole 18 years of my life!

11.08.08
sten and jon came over to study. but we werent really focus but we still manage to get stuff done. haha they stayed for dinner. before dinner we went to the playground and played and i went HIGH!! haa sten went high as well. only jon was the moody person. hmmm then dinner, they left. and i bought sneaker. after that i called sten and we both flared up. because i was the one who caused the flared up. long story. shall nt talk abt it.

12.08.08
Today im officically 18!! yes!! haha im having lunch with my family then i'll meet sean, sten, shannon and jon for dinner later today! thank you everyone for your well wishes! wish ur have a pleasent day as well. (:

A simple happy b'day message will do.

A simple request from me to you.

But then again may be its too much to ask.

I'm still missing you

I'm still in love with you.

2008-08-09T09:14:00.002+08:00

"The craziest thing I've done for love... is to bake countless of cookies and told my mom that they were for my friends when it was suppose to be for him. (:"

Catch Wall-E in cinemas from 28 August 2008
Originator blog: http://matthew-zachary.blogspot.com

Here you go Matt (:

To view his blog is just one click away~

or just copy and paste the URL.

Have a great day everyone (:

HAPPY 43TH BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE

I LOVE YOU!! (:

08.08.08

2008-08-08T21:57:00.005+08:00

I met up with Roystan, Lynette, Charissa, Shannon and Ellien at KAP's MAC for breakfast at 930. slowly, Jerry, teck hui, jia hui, xian kai, Lenard, zhonghao, zi y can as well. we went to society room put down our stuff and we down to the admin field for games. it was called bonding session. so we were randomly split up into 3 groups and we have to name ourselves. so i was in group 2 together with roystan, josephine, kaixin, shannon, pearlyn and shannon (temp. grp leader). we blind fold ourselves, and were randomly place in on the field. we had to follow the sound out grp leader (shannon) is gonna shout. so when we found our group. and the MCs in charged for that day which was basically group 1 (welfare team) said it was trail run (so wth). i was bring pulled out into no-where of the admin field and waiting for the group to be called. OHOH FYI! the MCs specifically said that THERE SHOULD BE NO COMMUNICATIONS! and i though (while being in the middle of no where) how am i suppose to find my group members?! so i waited. then i heard them shouting and i was like "i thought there is no shouting?!" change of rule. so i stood there like an idiot and waited. SUDDENLY out of no where, flour, water are thrown at me. i was stunned! totally took back by what has happen. i took out my blind fold and everyone was there and they started aiming two people. The August Babies: Amanda and me. haha so cute it was a surprise b'day celebration for us! Amanda's is post b'day cele, My pre b'day cele. haha omgosh they can really surprise ppl. i never expected it. anyway thank you a lot everyone from BA Society. Lyn and Roy thank you so much for the gift! although it was a simple photo frame, i'll still treasure it with all my heart and soul. (: I LOVE YOUR! The best gift! (:

We celebrated national day today in sch. haha i can say that some part of the event were kinda boring. i fell asleep half way. but then when it came to the singing part. we became so so so so so uber duper HIGH! HAHA
Okay. i dont feel like blogging no more. I shall stop here.

Happy 43th Birthday Singapore!! (:

One dance

2008-08-06T10:12:00.005+08:00

Just one dance to take me away.

Just one dance to soar me high.

Just one dance, is all I'm asking for.

Save one dance for me.

It doesn't have to be under a blue moon.

We don't have to move along with the song.

Just hold me tight.

Stay there for a while.

And remind me how it feels.

To be in the arms of the one you love.

And maybe when the song ends.

And we begin to let go.

It won’t hurt that much anymore.

That’s all I’m asking for.

One dance.

Fast posting

2008-08-04T22:29:00.002+08:00

hello everyone. I know it seems like I'm MIA-ing but its because im kinda busy! yes the finals. for theory paper. and im almost dead! have to faster mug if not cannot catch up already. hmm anwyay updates for the few days. well its augest and national day is coming! YEA! haha and that also means I'm growing another day older. zzz retarded! i dont think i wanna cele this year and my mom still insisted i just get a cake. i was like. its just another ordinary day lah. FYI i finally gt my dance shoes and skirt. i went out with stenphel the other day and then we went to watch The mummy show. i cant say its very nice. It lacks something. i cannot think what it is. but i find that there is no substance compared to the first two mummy movies. well anyway yeap. and thn on sun i went to work at travel fair. so basicallyi have to wear the korean costume and give out flyers for 10 hours. i love the costume!! haha and today i went with jon chia aka my so called new brother, to watch money no enough 2. i would say that the show kinda reflects on the way of how we singaporean thinks and the way we treat others. not bad a movie. i recon that u guys watch it. (:
i shall stop here. kinda tired as well. oh and good luck for all! for ur finals! (:

Short Story

2008-07-28T22:43:00.002+08:00

Hey guys! ITS GOING TO BE THE END OF SEM 1 SOON! In a months time, I think. Hahaa. anyway I went with Shannon, Shenphel and Jon for a movie today. We watch the dark knight. The show was nice but somehow I feel that it is very patchy at some point of the time. But overall the storyline was not bad. And I became quite emotional at the end of the show. I feel that it is not fair for him; taking all the blame just to let that prick headed-burned-two-faced dude to save his reputation!

A question for everyone:

By taking all the blame on yourself considered the ideal solution to solve all problem?

Well, anyway, its just a show. A twist I so that it's hard to predict the beginning, middle or ending.

Anyway I have a story I would like to share with everyone. (:

Change Your Thinking

It will take just 37 seconds to read this and change your thinking.

Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room.

One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs.

His bed was next to the room's only window.

The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.

The men talked for hours on end.

They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation.

Every afternoon, when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.

The man in the other bed began to live for those one hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside.

The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake.

Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats.

Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color and a fineview of the city skyline could be seen in the distance.

As the man by the window described all this in exquisite details, the man onthe other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine this picturesque scene.

One warm afternoon, the man by the window described a parade passing by.

Although the other man could not hear the band - he could see it in his mind's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words.

Days, weeks and months passed.

One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep.

She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away.

As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window.

The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.

Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside.

He strained to slowly turn to look out the window besides the bed. It faced a blank wall.

The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this window.

The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall.

She said, 'Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you.'

Epilogue:

There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations.

Shared grief is half the sorrow, but happiness when shared, is doubled.

If you want to feel rich, just count all the things you have that money can't buy.'

Today is a gift, that is why it is called The Present.'

Blinded

2008-07-26T23:41:00.004+08:00

GO AWAY!

STOP ENTERING MY MIND!

STOP CLOUDING MY MIND!

STOP APPEARING IN MY MIND!

STOP CAUSING ME TO HALLUCINATE!

STOP IT! STOP IT! STOP IT!!

I'M STARTING TO HAVE PURE HATRED TOWARDS YOU!

Prevention is possible.

IF you just stop it!

Do me a favour.

JUST DISAPPEAR INTO THIN AIR!

TA24

2008-07-25T23:45:00.009+08:00

*Isabel & Claire (MIA)

Argh my legs are super duper sore!! I had technic classes on thursday which was basically 2 days ago. The so called technic classes were more like yogo class. I had major problem walking today! Today the whole class were formally dressed and I have to admit the guys were looking good! Girls, no, Ladies you were just stunning! (: Anyway, we went as a class (kinda sad that claire and isabel is not there if not it will really be a class), for lunch at the alumni clubhouse and after that we remain there and started to cam-whore when we were suppose to discuss in our individual groups our PBL 2.

okay! we are finally done with cam-whoring and we all got down to business and be serious. haha! Fastforward to DSS class, order of presenting was shannon's group, Leon's group, Sean's group and last but not least Ezrynn's group. However, today there was a special guest from another class, they were from BS and had to present today after Ezrynn's group cos they were unable to present before that. SHANNON'S GROUP WAS LATE BY 15 MINS they arrived abotu 14:15. So when it was 14:10 teacher ask Leon's group to go first. When they were preparing and about to start, Shannon and her group mates came in. But they went second. So the presentation went on until after the BS students. At first, I was suppose to meet Debby and then go home tgt with her but in the end I went to Vivo with sean and shannon! I feel so bad! haha anyway I FINALLY got a new notebook bag for $29! I bought a pair of white heels from heatwave as well! I super uber sweet looking!! And it was on sale; only for $19.90!

Anyway, I called dad to pick me up cos i was so tired. Oh I met shannon's mom. She a nice lady. (: a super duper cool mom! Anyway Yh called told me that we were actually suppose to meet nancy for lunch. I asked Nat, John are they free. FINALLY after all the discussion. We are all able to meet for lunch. SO i via sms Nancy and asked her. She said she cant make it. She has sth on. SAD! I MISS HER! So i ask the rest if they were find if we met her during our 7 weeks holiday. So situation settled! We'll meet her during the holidays. (:

M.E.M.O.R.I.E.S

2008-07-22T23:48:00.003+08:00

I Will Remember You - Ryan Cabrera

Eight years later
Time goes by fast
Got my memories
And they will last
I try to keep it simple 'cuz I hate goodbyes
I try to keep it simple by telling myself that

I, I will remember you
And all of the things that we've gone through
There is so much I can say
But words get in the way so
We're not together
I will remember you
I will remember you

We're a picture in my mind
And when I wanna find you I just close my eyes
You'll never be that far from me
So don't say goodbye 'cuz
You'll never be that far from me I'm telling myself that

I, I will remember you
And all of the things that we've gone through
There is so much I can say
But words get in the way so
We're not together
I will remember you

You were there when I needed love and
Thank you, thank you
I never told you how much that meant
God thank you, thank you
I will remember you

And all of the things that we've gone through
There is so much I can say
But words get in the way so
I, I will remember you
And all of the things that we've gone through
There is so much I can say
But words get in the way so
We're not together I will remember
We're not together

I will remember you.

Song above is introducted to me by Jon.*Three cheers for him. (: but apparently the song couldnt be send to my through msn. How sad is that!

Thank you Jon for refreshing part of my memories which I intended to bury.

Its a really sweet song. Not doubt that it gives my flasbacks of different memories.

I am unable to let go.
I have tried forgetting.

May be it doesnt seem like 8 years but it still feels like eternaty. (:

Every moment that we have spent together.

Every moment felt like it can take my breath away.

I need you here.

For every second,

For every minute,

For every hour.

I can't forget you, my dear.

I'm still in love with you..

Hi! (:

2008-07-20T16:59:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone!

I realised that this post seemed very random. Haha. but FYI the posts I've done for today are not done by me but I got to from Mind Your Body newspaper July 16, 2008. So yeap! It's just for everyone to read about it. (:

Have a great day! (:

Too hot to handle. Fact or Fiction

2008-07-20T16:45:00.000+08:00

THE CLAIM:
A spicy meal before bed can disrupt sleep.

THE FACT:
An old wives' tale has it that a little kcik to the plate before bed can lead to fitful sleep, if not nightmares. Well, the advice is a good one. Research over the years has shown that a spicy meal at night can lead to poor sleep. The most direct study to show this was published in the International Journal Of Psychophysiology be team of Australian researchers. The scientist recruited a group of young, healthy men and had them consume meals that contained Tabasco sauce and mustard shortly before they turned in on some evenings and non-spicy control meals on other evenings. On the nights that included spicy meals, there were marked changes in the subjects' sleep patterns. They spent less time in both the light phase of sleep know as Stage 2 and the deep, slow-wave Stage 3 and 4 sleep. All of which meant that the subjects experienced less sleep overall and took longer to drift off. In accounting for the effect, an obvious possibility is indigestion. The scientists also noted that after eating spicy meals, the subjects' body temperature rose during their first sleep cycles, which has been linked in other studies to poorer sleep quality.

THE BOTTOM LINE:
A spicy meal before bed can impair sleep.

To fear or not to fear death.

2008-07-20T16:01:00.002+08:00

What it is about death that scares us so much?
After all, death is every bit as natural as birth. So why fear it?

According to the American philosopher Tom Morris, there are at least four kinds of fear of death.

There is fear of the process of dying. Here, death itself is not the problem, but rather those last hours and minutes as life ebbs away. We worry that dying might be a painful or frightening experience and dread it.
There is fear of punishment. Some people believe that in the afterlife, they will be punished for their sins. Certain religions threaten dreadful consequences for quite commonplace faults and failings. This can cause great axiety, even to those whose lives are far from wicked.
There is fear of the unknown. What happens when we die? Is death like sleep? Or is it mere nothingness? Is it terrifying? Or is it the beginning of a new and better existance? We simply do not know. And what we do not know, we fear.
There is fear of annihilation. Some people believe - or worry - that death ends everything. Once death comes, the glorious gift of experience is gone forever. No more life; no more laughter; no more love; no more sunshine. This, I think, is the most fundamentail fear of all.

THREE CONSOLATIONS

But enough of doom and gloom. Let's take a look at the flip-side of the coin and consider some reasons for believing that death may not be such a bad thing after all. The greek philosopher Socrates (470-399BC) believed that it is irrational to worry about death, about ir. For all we know, it may turn out to be the greatest of all blessings. So there is absolutely no point getting worked up, or jumping to unpleasant conclusions. Socrates himself was tried and sentenced to death by the Athenian courts, accused of corrupting the youth and disbelieveing the ancestral gods. According to his pupil, Plato, he faced heath with remarkable composure: "The hour of departure has arrived and we go our ways - I to die and you to live. Which is the better, God only knows." The Roman politican and philosopher Seneca (4BC-65AD) also considered it irrational to fear death. He supported this view with what I think is a very beautiful argument: no one frets about their past non-existence (before they were born), so why should they fret about their future non-existence after they are dead? "Would you not think him an utter fool who wept because he was not alive a thousand years old? And is he not just as much of a fool who weeps because he will not be alive a thousand years from now? It is all the same; you will not be, and were not." Seneca was sentenced to death be the infamously wicked Roman Emperor Nero. In fact, he was ordered to commit suicide. And, like Socrates before him, he met his fate with extraordinary courage and fortitude. The philosopher Epicurus (342-270BC) considered the fear of death to be one of life's major sources of anguish. He devised a very famous argument to convince us that our fears are misplaced. "Death, the most dreaded of evils, is therefore of no concern to us; for while we exist, death is not present, and when death is present, we no longer exist."

MAYONNAISE! Fact of Fiction?

2008-07-20T15:22:00.002+08:00

THE CLAIM:
Mayonnaise can increase the risk of food poisoning.

THE FACT:
One poplar picnic ingredient that always attracts suspicion is mayonnaise. But studies cast doubt on that. Most commercial brands of mayonnaise contain vinegar and other ingredients that make them acidic - and therefore very likely to protect against spoilage. When problems occur, they usually result from other contaminated or low-acid ingredients (like chicken and seafood), improper storage and handling, or homemade version that contains unpasteurised eggs. One prominent study published in The Journal Of Food Protection found, for example, that in the presence of commercial mayonnaise, the growth of salmonella and staphylococcus bacteria in contaminated chicken and ham salad either slowed or stopped altogether. As the amount of mayonnaise increased, the rate of growth decreased. When temperatures rose to those of a hot summer day, the growth increased, but not as much as in samples that did not contain mayonnaise. For backyard chefs, some high-risk foods are raw shellfish, bulk ground beef (health offcials say a single hamburger can contain meat from hundred of animals) and unwashed fruits and vegetables.

THE BOTTOM LINE:
Despite its reputation , mayonnaise can reduce food spoilage.

Tanning! Skin cancer?

2008-07-20T15:08:00.002+08:00

To all,
My dearest beloved.

BEWARE!

This article was taken from the newspaper from MIND YOUR BODY.

A new study suggests that melanoma, the deadliest type of skin cancer, is on the rise among young women, but not among young men. The research team led by Mr Mark Purdue of the National Institutes of Health, examined data gathered from a network of cancer registries across the United States. The analysis focused on Caucasian women aged 15 to 39 who were diagnosed from 1973 to 2004. Increased incidence of melanomas was seen from the 1990s through it held fairly steady for men between 1980 and 2004. Researchers say it is not erntirely clear why more and more young women seem to be getting skin cancer. They suggest that the increase is not just the result of changes in the way the medical community tracks the disease. Separate studies have looked at sun damage trends. One study, cited on the WebMD website, reported that 16 to 18-year-olds had a higher incidence of sunburn and spent more days at the beach in 2004 then they did in 1998. More young people in the US, mostly women, are also using tanning beds. Studies suggest that UV rays from tanning beds and tanning lamps can be just as damaging as sun rays. Ultraviolet radiation is main risk factor for developing melanoma.

Short Post

2008-07-18T21:38:00.001+08:00

DSS IS SUCH A PAIN!

BMGT's major project just ended today!

Smiles (:

FINALLY!

One more left to go!

2 more on coming tests

FINAL EXAMS!

The end of 1.2 module. (:

Fun & Excitment (:

2008-07-09T17:36:00.005+08:00

Hi guys! so sorry for such a long delay!. FINALLY I can update my blog. Phew this week is a BUSY week. BUT it was worth it! I shall quit talking and start typing!

7th July 2008

Monday

Basically this week is e-learning week for DSS. FYI DSS refers to decision support with spreadsheet. We are taught how to use Excel 2007 and its functions in them. I bet some people may think that this is a redundent subject. BUT its helpful alrights expecially when you have numbers in 9 to 10 digits! Anyway i stayed back to discuss my groups PBL2 and we had serious problems doing it! We went to ourspace@72's reading room to discuss and I tell you guys NP seriously have North and South poles in school! the temperatures in school are FREEZING COLD! so at 6 i went for briefing for the upcoming poly experience and i was deployed to school of ICT. at first i was thinking OMG! Seriously no way! After the break up I had to bring the students to "his" school! I was like there is no way this is happening to me! but still its my duty and i have to do it.

8th July 2008

Tuesday

My blaw tutorial was cancelled and I had no idea why and it was postpone to this thursday after my blaw lecture at 4-5. So up till here everything was alright until 2 30 when I received a sms from ezrynn (INFA rep.) where she say INFA LECTURE IS CANCELLED! so last min. and i started rotting all the way until 5 plus where i went to ambassdor's room after jon called and ask where I was and i mearly reply him Im passing my time by rotting. Zzzz. Yea it was 2 more days left to the poly xperience so I had another breifing and it was about welcom team. I was posted to ICT's welcome team followed by guided tour thanks to chai hong's recommendation. and our breifing was how to lead the students to their holding area. after that i went for dancesports. Oh Oh i forget to announce that my dance partner is called BRANDON! and he is seriously CRAZY over dance. I have never seen anyone having so much passion for dance! haha. Even when he walks, he is dancing. oh yea and we were planning to take part in the dance competition on the 23 Aug which is 2 days after my final paper.

9th July 2008

Wednesday

IS modules. LMS we have to blog on 4 post on any topic we have learnt and this 2nd blog is 20%! It carries a high weightage. I have to start blogging on that topic(s) soon. we had IAC this sem! i rather have it on the first sem though. Starts faster and it ends faster so i can concentrate more on my other modules but sadly it starts on the 2nd sem. OH and for the whole of the 1.5 hour of lesson my group was laughing really bad. haha we youtube-ing on funny video(s) and ziyi he is like a laughing machines. NON-stop! and 1 more day left to THE Poly Xperience!. haha Im SO excited and nervous. cos it all year 1's 1st OFFICIAL event!

10th July 2008

Thursday

OFFICAL STARTING OF THE POLY XPERIENCE! haha im so so EXCITED and NERVOUS! i was suppose to meet my group members at 12 but i had to make a special request that can i go at 1 instead of the 1 hr MAEC tutorial. and my tutor was like PAM you better stay for it. Can you make a request, so i said i try. haha so yea i met the rest at like 1 and had lunch before the even officially starts. Im in the run 2 where Liz is number one where she has to lead a grp of students to me and i lead them inside to another leader. Basically matt and i take turns to lead the students in. After a skit in the CC we brought them to the school of ICT (Infocomm Technology).
1. From there the student delegates take over
2. Tell them more abt the course and other things they wanted to find out from the school of ict
3. Brought to LT 28 for boarding buses
4. Ourspace@ 72: collection of goodie bags
5. CC: cca fiesta and course counseling and moblie pod.
6. debrief and COMPLAINS!
7. dancesports (brandon and i were staving while dancing; aint we "pro" oh and our comp was cancelled due to some political problems in KL, LAMO)

11th July 2008

Friday

Friday was the last day of poly xperience. I can say that friday's flowing of event was SUPERB! better then the first day! haha i guess after all the admentments and complains it became better somehow and the students are more entusiastic and interested in the topics today. I was satisfied with todays programms and events.AND MATTHEW, i had no idea where he came up with the name, started calling me PAMPERS! I was like WTH!! Zzz i think this name is gonna be stuck with me forever. Although there is no such thing as perfect but it was WAY better then the first day! I saw him and it was rather awkward. I was decided whether to "pretend" not to see him or acknowledge his presence. IN THE END, i said hi and went back to doing my duties. I seriously regreted tell JON CHAI abt the new "nickname" matthew gave me. Zzzz and now he keeps on going pampers..pampers... OH MY!
After a skit in the CC we brought them to the school of ICT (Infocomm Technology).
1. From there the student delegates take over
2. Tell them more abt the course and other things they wanted to find out from the school of ict
3. Brought to LT 28 for boarding buses
4. Ourspace@ 72: collection of goodie bags
5. CC: cca fiesta and course counseling and moblie pod.
6. debrief and LESS COMPLAINS more complements
7. dinner at mac!

Saturday

12 July 2008

It's like going to 1 and i have to be at AMK at 10 and Im still blogging!
Okay good nights everyone! More like good morning! (:

I LOVE AMBASSADORS! (:

2008-07-03T22:57:00.002+08:00

LONG DAY TODAY!

another serveral words for today:

REALLY EXHAUSTED.

Reached sch at 730. waited for the booth (underpass push carts) to be open. decorated the booth. i was alone! lynette and roy had classes. waited until 11 roy came, i went for class, came back to help out at 1. left for blaw lecture at 2. at 4 went to the booth to help out again until 530/6. had a short briefing before going for cca. which ended 2 hrs ago. bascially i sent my day running back and forth.

yes this is my day today, packed with activities.
So sorry readers for my unsightly sentences, but im just too tired to work my brain to phrase it correctly.

Exhausted

2008-06-28T11:43:00.002+08:00

Word of the day:

Exhausted

Hate that I love you

2008-06-28T00:10:00.005+08:00

Omg I think today is a bad day for me. I should be happy since im meeting up with my dearest: Sze Rui, Natalie, Shao Yan, Daryl, Young Hwan and Ben, after sch today at westmall. We had so much to catch up today. It seems like ages when we saw each other today. I really do miss the times we spent together. With them around, all memories start to be refreshed in my head.

All Memories...

I suddenly felt so sad.
I miss you. I can't seem to let go.
It so annoying! I wanna cry! I wanna scream!
I keep on telling others to keep a positive attitude in life
BUT what about me? Why do my smiles seem so fake?
Why? Why? Why?
Omgosh seriously I dont know what else to do.
I saw you today, you didn't see me but you seemed fine.
I felt hurt. It felt as if the past memories didn't mean anything to you.

To me, your never forgotten...
To you, I'm forgotten...

I hate that I love you.

2008-06-27T21:34:00.003+08:00

ISFP

(Introvert, Sensor, Feeler, Perceiver)

People of this type tend to be: kind, humble, and highly empathetic; thoughtful, faithful, and affectionate with those they know well; sensitive to criticism and easily hurt; quiet, soft-spoken, and gentle; adaptable, responsive, and curious; realistic and down to earth.

The most important thing to ISFPs is feeling peaceful and harmonious with the people and places that matter most to them.

Loving an ISFP

Be a patient and supportive listener; make it safe for me to speak my mind.
Appreciate my gentle, nurturing nature and ability to find joy in simple pleasures.
Express your love and affection freely and often!
Demonstrate your devotion in thoughtful actions.
Try not to nag me about order, or force decisions too quickly.
Above all - Show me you love me exactly the way I am.

__________________________________________________________

Two Words (:

2008-06-22T23:48:00.002+08:00

The last day of my 2 weeks vacation break.
A busy busy week for most of us.
I dont have much things to say now though.
Im just exhaused. I need a rest.
Good nights Everyone.

This is for anyone who feels like there is never a new day or it's the end of the world.

I have two words for you, "Think positive".

And SMILE. (:

A smile or a laughter blows ALL your worries away.

Live in the future not the past.

Yesterday is the past

Tomorrow is mystery

Today is a gift for god, that's why it's called present

A New Day
Author Unknown

If life seems at its lowest ebb,

Because a day's gone wrong.

Let not your heart be troubled,

For a new day soon will dawn

And we can never be quite sure,

Just what it has in store.

Since each one is so different,

Than the one just gone before

As it penetrates the darkness,

With its soft and tranquil beams.

It calms even the most restless soul,

And brings new hopes and dreams

So when a days been troubled,

And the night is dark and long.

Lift up your fallen spirits,

For a new day soon will dawn

Busy Beeeeeeeee!

2008-06-21T09:32:00.005+08:00

My cousin is getting married today! I'm so happy for him but at the same time i feel older.

When will my other cousins get married?

When is it my turn?

When will my brother get married?

When will the first grandchild be born?

SO many when, what, why, who , how questions are going on in my head.

Then it struck me,

growing up, getting married, a career, being parents and having children,

are part and parcel of life.

A phrase of life every one is bound to encounter.

Just like how the sun rise from the East, sets in the West.

Its a daily routine.

A Neverending Routine.

A draw 3 designs for the back of our T-shirt for SC recruitment drive.

I mearly copied and paste it. So i wouldnt say its 100% my own creativity.

BUT im proud that i can draw it!

By the time i finished this, it was 2 am! and gosh im so tired now.

3rd last day before the holiday starts

2008-06-20T21:05:00.002+08:00

I went to school this morning for LMS project. I was the earliest! Manling, Ziyi and Sean were all late! So basically i just sat in the room and daze off. But after everyone came, we started and ended our project fast! and guess what i created half a story for our skit! haha. so cool. i didn't know that i was that creative. Anyway the 4 of us went to canteen 1 for lunch and we went separate ways. Ziyi i think he was meeting some friends. Sean and Manling went to take 52. I went to take 52 as well, but i had to cross the bridge. I was heading towards town to meet up with Lynette and Roysten. A small outing we had. We watch hulk. Not bad i would say. haha but i think im too tired that i ALMOST fell asleep in the theatre. but i would recommend it to ppl to watch. 3.5 to 4 stars! Oh oh i almost forgot, we bought shirts for our SC recuitment day. haha and im going to be drawing on it. oh my. i hope it turns out well.

2008-06-19T10:09:00.002+08:00

It's just another day like any other day, BUT today I'm going sit and mug! yes! MUG! You didn't hear me wrongly. I AM GOING TO BE A MUGGER FOR TODAY! If not i lagging behind. I have planned what to do today.

Breakfast
Shower
Look for stories for LMS
MacroEcon Presentation
Ambassador's Presentation
INFA
BLAW

Yes this is now it's going to be. I WILL DO IT! (:

I'm so tired even after hours of sleep.

I have no idea why.

Is every aftermath syndrome like this?

It feel so pathetic!

I have regain my freedom once more,

but somehow I dont feel free.

Instead, I feel stronger.

Ironic.

Aftermath Syndrome

2008-06-18T22:22:00.008+08:00

Wow, I must say this week has been a busy week for me.

Monday I had class outing which did not feel like class outing because only 6 people turned up. haha. after that some of us were suppose to discuss our project, in the end, we went KBOX! LOL. It was just so random!

Tuesday i went to school because I didn't want to remain at home. If not i'll start to hallucinate or hyperventilate. Meet up with yiguang, wolf and jon to do blaw while they did bmgt. Went to out space, saw Brandon, Pris and Matt told them im going out today and then TRIED doing DSS but failed because i was just too tired! haha basically sometimes, my life is a real bore! Not only, just busy with my projects which are due soon (omgosh! help me!), I have been heading out. haha. My craze for shopping is back again! AFTERMATH syndrome! I'M just numb. I went with faith to mango and i spent $100 without feeling a pinch in my heart. I JUST FEEL SO NUMB!! It's just so WRONG WRONG WRONG!I'm so exhausted.

Today, we had an Ambassadors outing, proudly organised by Matthew (anyone who doesn't know him, PS, his the poster boy), we went to watch kung fu panda and we had bowling. omg i seriously suck at bowling! F.Y.I. ,never place a bet with him, his just too good! He basically trashed everyone! HAHA and btw Matt, rmb on the train you ask me and ben our truthful feeling: Why Ambassadors? The answer i gave you was my secondary answer which i though it was my primary answer. So on my way walking home, i rethink about the question. my true answer would be to find the real me. I dont know why but i think the "me" everyone is looking at, is just a cover up like a mask. My heart tells me that the real me is somewhere out there but i have yet to find it. In a way, I'm hope-ing that in Ambassadors, I can find "me". yeap (:

Honestly what will become of me.
Don't like reality.
It's way too clear to me.
But really life is daily.
We are what we don't see.
Missed everything daydreaming.
Flames to dust.
Lovers to friends.
Why do all good things come to an end?
Does life have to be like this?
Perhaps they do. Perhaps they don't. No one knows.
LIFE IS SO MYSTERIOUS.
IT SECRETS ARE NEVER UNFOLD.

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry.
It was just so wrong.
I should have never let you hold me.
Your scent & the feel of your arms still lingers on
I hate it. Please i beg of you, take them along with you.
Let me go. I can take it no more.
I'll falling from pure exhaustion.
Please take them along.
I'm tired.
Please just go.

Sweetness, Sourness & Bitterness

2008-06-16T09:40:00.005+08:00

How can I sing when my words have run dry.
How can I smile with a tear in my eyes.
Summer's so lost
When it's raining in June.
That how its feels now.
It stared off sweet ended off bitter with a tinge of sourness in the centre. Three Flavour I had during this period of time. But in the end, it ended off with bitterness. I would say this is life.
To fix it or not to fix it?
A frequent question ask. In the end the chosen one was not to fix OR it was just too much differences that no matter how much fixing there is, it cant be fixed.
I cant tell it now. It hurts. My tears glands was in too much shock to react.
After all I'm just a bird that cant be caged. I fly, flew and now I've flown.
That day, I could tell there was something wrong but I just brush it off.
Mayby i shouldn't. My mom predicted it was ending soon but being stubbon, I didn't heed her advice.

Still I would like to say it was an enjoyable short moment and you've made me stronger.
I hate the fact that it ended but I love the fact that it's a new beginning.
Ironically, THIS IS LIFE!

quick post!

2008-06-11T20:22:00.003+08:00

just to post a random post now. gonna be MIA for 3 days. *girns im gonna miss u peeps!
are ur gonna miss me?? haha anyway now is 8.25 pm gonna make a quick post now gonna go out to watch KUNGFU PANDA! haha its kinda cute show. yeap. and i went to Ngee Ann for my first BA Society meets. WOW there are quite a number of activity. pray they dont clash with ambassadors! hmm but saw all the 8 grps today. haha i think we're gonna have LOTS of fun this yr! haha opssy gotta go change mom chasing me! yeap.
See you peeps soon! (:

Her thoughts, Her emotions, Her feelings

2008-06-11T09:02:00.004+08:00

Sometimes you make me wonder.
Sometimes you make me confused.
Sometimes you seem to be here right next to me,
But yet i feel as if you are far away not within my gaps.

I'm so confused.
I'm so tired.
You left me wondering.
Your left me poundering.
I can't stand this madness no more.

It's so hard to tell what are you feeling.
Your keeping it hush to yourselves.
I want to be there for you.
But at some point your barrer is so hard to penertrate.

I want to try to tell you how I feel.
but I can't seem to do so.
Dont ask me why.
I just can't.

It's bad, I know
It ain't suppose to be like this.
Stop asking me why.
Because I just can't.

Sometimes it hurts so bad
that I want to wail out in tears,
However these tears don't seem to fall.
It's a horrible feeling.

I love you too much.
I didn't let my feelings known to you
Because i feel selfish
I know it sounds dumb
but I can't bare to let you see me suffering

I rather suffer alone
then see you suffer with me.
It hurts even worst when I see you do so.
I'm sorry for being selfish.

2008-06-10T08:55:00.002+08:00

8th June 2008
I was out with natalie. She randomly ask me if i wanted to catch a movie. I said why nt? (: haha anyway i was bored at home so i agreed. we met at clementi mrt station at 415 to catch the 545 movie at Vivo City but apprently it was FULL. so we ended up watching the 605 one. and our seat was at THE FIRST ROW! my neck is gonna break. haha but the movie was a bomb! The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian. The actor who act as Peter is so cute and edwin he reminds me of BENJAMIN. haha i told nat abt it and she say kinda. haha the movie ended abt 8 close to 9. we decided nt having dinner and head home cos we were kinda tired. so yeap and we catch up on old times. (:

9th June 2008
I went to Ngee Ann early inthe morning. GRRRR!!! so tired. but i have no choice to go because of the Inauguration session. ITS FOR THE AMBASSADORS! haha i gt in. was kinda shocked at the first place but oh well i gt in!!! haha and we have a TnB camp this upcoming thurs (12th June) to Sat (14th June). So sad i think i have to miss my brother's graduation this sat. wah! so not fair. he is graduation form OCS. OCS is like way grand lah! walao eh. hmm. but what to do if i dont go for the camp i cant be in the ambassadors. so glad that my brother understands (:
during the inauguration we meet our group mates. haha. we are new to each other but somehow it felt as if we know each other for yrs! after the inauguration session i met up with rui for lunch after i went to her place. we are so glad we have each other lah. if not we have no idea how to pass time. haha rui ar rui now u know how to directly connect the internet to ur laptop? (: haha

Just another Post

2008-06-07T22:47:00.010+08:00

Helllooo people! (: after CT im back for another post. haha anyway i went out on the day my final paper ended. and guess what i went out with the same person. FOR 3 WHOLE DAYS!!! i havent seen her ever since after the O's results. haha i guess its making up for it. and the girl is WAN XIN! yeap the one and only her. first day we went town. but we weren't satisfied with what we bought. i was looking for a swim wear and i saw it but when u see the pricing of the swim wear, ur eyes will POP out. and literally POP out! the price of just the upper part is $100++. but i love the colour. its blue but the colour gives people a calm feeling. from taka we headed to wisma to look at bags and flats but found nothing we like. then we headed to far east. we bought shades and i bought a scarf. yeap that is the first day.

The 2nd day, we decided to head out to vivo the next day but the same thing vivo we couldnt find what we wanted. i guess this season's clothes, bags, shoes, literally everything anit tat good. at the same time, i went around scouting for bermbs for my dear. i had problems because, bermbs aint 3 quartars and aint shorts. so i kinda needed wan xin's help. haha in case i see the wrong kind of pants. =X. since vivo is link to harbour front we went there for dinner. and we managed to get our flats. i had to get mine quick cos my old pair has become a "scary crocodile". =.=" haha. yeap. since we had nthing we needed at vivo and harbour front we went to bugis street. bugis street feels like bangkok! but the singapore version one. only on the 2nd day we felt satisfied. i have no idea why but i mean real satisfaction compared to the first day.

i got 2 bags, a shirt and a belt from bugis street!

hurhur. there was a blissful feeling for a moment!

haha (: but come to think of it, it's a litter over exsagerating. hmmm. im on shopping spree influence by SZERUI!!

*BEWARE OF HER SHOPPING DISEASE!!

hmm as for the 3rd day which is today. i just went to clarke quay alone to watch wu shu performance. haha do i dont look like i LOVE wu shu? i LOVE it so much but just tat i cant learn because of my back problem. kinda sad.

BUT it's alright because i still have my dear Jerry (: , dance and my dearest friends:

Sze Rui, Serene, Natalie, John, Shao Yan, Daryl, Benjamin, Young Hwan!

You peeps, are someone I'll Never Forget! (:

LOL i think it doesnt link, but whatever the case i still love them loads!! (:

anyway today is just watching a performance at a community club. its to celebrate the dumpling festival. but WX and i left early cos it became boring in the end. we left ard 830. headed to the nearest shopping centre cos we were STARVING. we had long john silver. after tat we went home. was suppose to take 190 but in the end wx gt tempted by me to take the mrt. muhaha! so yeap. we took mrt home instead.

POSE! (:

wan xin ordered this.

gyoza!

i ordered this. (: unable to resist the temptation =P

chawamushi

(i think this is how it is spelt, hmm no idea)

One man isn’t any better than another, not because they are equal, but because they are intrinsically other, that there is no term of comparison.

Her moment of RETARD-NESS!

2008-05-31T21:30:00.008+08:00

heeeelllllooooo people! (: i have no idea why am i so HIGH and i started playing with my com's webcam. started cam-whoreing for the FIRST time! hehe. i guess im real bored today.

PICTURE OF THE DAY! (:

I LOVE THIS ONE.

This is the combination of the ones that i prefer.

Trying to act cool but fail miserably

Trying to act dead but fail as well.

I have no idea what I'm doing but just posing randomly.

Acting Seductive. But somehow the outcomes feels down right horney. LOL

"The Slience often of pure innocence persuades when speaking fails"

~William Shakespear~

The Neutral ME(s)

When You Love Someone

2008-05-30T20:07:00.003+08:00

When you love someone so deep inside,
It seems like it's so easy to hide.
You've loved him for so very long,
You would think he could do no wrong.

Every day you would hope and pray,
That he would always stay this way.
He treated you like you should be treated,
You thought your life was finally completed.

But heaven started to play tricks on you.
You started getting neglected and left alone,
while he dwells in his world.
curious and worried you quired to no avil.

One night he was so sweet to you,
You thought all those things were maybe untrue,
Two days later he was back the same,
You thought you were the one to blame.

2008-05-30T19:38:00.002+08:00

Fallen Angel - Chris Brown

A song worth listening too. Give it a try (:

FALLEN ANGEL

Artist: Chris Brown

[Verse 1]

If I could, take a trip,to outer space

She would be the one, I will see

When I get, to heavens gate

She would welcome me with her arms, open wide, and a smile

Will shadow me brighter than the sun

She hasn’t had a fair chance, so I’ll give her one

Let me tell you who she is, yeah

[Chorus]

She’s a fallen angel, sent from heaven up above

She’s a fallen angel, waitin for me to love her, yeah

(Know that she’s) She’s a fallen angel, take your judgment off her

I know, that she’s a fallen angel

[Verse 2]

You know, I could

Help her mend, her broken wings

So she can fly again

But I don’t, wanna lose everything that I’ve gained

Turnin me a selfish man (oh)

Cause without em my heart just don’t go, no more (no more)

I couldn’t take the pain, from watchin her fly away

So say that you’ll stay

She’s mine

[Chorus]

She’s a fallen angel, (ooh) sent from heaven up above

She’s a fallen angel, waitin for me to love her, yeah

(Know that she’s) She’s a fallen angel, so take your judgment off her

I know, that she’s a fallen angel

[Verse 3]

Don’t you Baby

don’t you (don’t you worry) worry

I’m gon help you (I’m gon help you ) fly

(I’m gon help you fly)

Just take me under yo (take me under) wings,

And we can reach the (we can reach the) sky

(we can reach the sky)

Baby don’t you (don‘t you worry) worry,

I’m gon help you (I’m gon help you ) fly

(I’m gon help you fly)

Yo mama, don’t you (take me under) worry

you gon reach the (we can reach the) sky

(we can reach the sky)

She’s a…

[Chorus]

She’s a fallen angel, (hey hey) sent from heaven up above, just for me

She’s a fallen angel, waitin for me to wrap my heart around her, know

(Know that she’s) She’s a fallen angel, makin due with all the judgment (no)

I know, that she’s (yeah) a fallen angel (ooh ahh)

[Verse 4]

Baby I know

I know that they done hurt you

But I’m here

Let’s take it all away

So if you let me…

You know what, just put your heart in my hands

And everything they say, I take it back Like this…

[reversed last verse]

[Verse 5]

You don’t mean nothing, [reversed line]

I don’t want ya, [reversed line]

I don’t need ya, [reversed line]

Never loved ya, [reversed line]

You’re nobody, [reversed line]

And ‘ll never make it, [reversed line]

You’re a mistake (ooh), [reversed line]

31 Ways To Make A Girl Smile

2008-05-23T19:00:00.002+08:00

Dont hug her friends or your friends that are girls cause she'll feel left out
Hold her hand at any moment . . . even if its just for a second.
Hug her from behind
Leave her voice messages to wake up.
Wrestle with her
Don't go hang out with you ex when shes not with you, you might not realize how badly it hurts her.
If you're talking to another girl, when you're done talking, walk over and hug her and kiss her.... let her know she's yours and they aren't.
Write her notes or call her just to say "hi"..and not just at night after you've already been out with other girls.
Introduce her to your friends . . . as your girlfriend.
Play with her hair.
Pick her up
Get upset if another guy touches her and she doesn't like it.
Make her laugh, if you can make her laugh, you can make her do anything.
Let her fall asleep in your arms.
If she's mad at you, kiss her.
If you care about her, then tell her
Every guy should give their girl 3 things: a stuffed animal(she'll hug it every time she goes to sleep), jewelry (she'll treasure it forever), and one of his t-shirts (she'll most likely wear it to bed).
Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you're alone.
Look her in the eyes and smile.
Hang out with her on weekends
Kiss her in the rain
Kiss her just for the heck of it
If your listening to music, let her listen too.
Remember her birthday and get her something, even if
its simple and inexpensive, it came from YOU. it means all the world to HER. it's the thought that counts.
When she gives you a present on your birthday, Christmas, or just whenever, take it and tell her you love it, even if you don't (it'll make her happy.)
Always call her when you say you will, it may not seem like it, but it does hurt her and makes her think you don't care so call even if you can only talk for a minute. Girls don't necessarily have to have hour-long conversations every night but its nice for us to hear your voice even for a quick hello.
Give her what she wants
Recognize the small things . . . they usually mean the most.
Tell her shes beautiful, she needs to know her striving is working.
Hang out with her whenever you are free and u should be free to hang with your girl friend all the time
If u care about her...SHOW her

Guy's Point of view

2008-05-18T19:36:00.002+08:00

This is very cute! And even written by a guy! You might agree with it, but when it actually happens 99% of girls don't realize it 'til it is too late
and that guy who did it is so frustrated that he has moved on to someone who will take notice.

From a guys point of view:
We don't care if you talk to other guys.
We don't care if you're friends with other guys.
But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room
and you jump up and tackle him without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.
We don't care if a guy calls you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.
Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can't wait till he morning.

Also, when we tell you you're pretty/beautiful/gorgeous/cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.
Don't tell us we're wrong.
We'll stop trying to convince you.
The sexiest thing about a girl is Confidence.
Yeah, you can quote me.
Don't be mad when we hold the door open.
Take Advantage of the mood im in.
LET US PAY FOR YOU! DON'T 'FEEL BAD' We enjoy doing it.
It's expected.
Smile and say 'thank you.'
Kiss us when no one's watching.
If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.
You don't have to get dressed up for us.
If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the
need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.
We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT you are.
Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's.
Or my t-shirt and boxers, not all dolled up.
Don't take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing.
See the beauty in it.
Don't get angry easily.
Stop using magazines/media as your bible.
Don't talk about how hott Morris Chesnutt, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us.
It's boring, and we don't care.
You have girlfriends for that.
Whatever happened to the word 'handsome'/'beautiful'.
I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with 'Hey handsome!' instead of 'Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy' or whatever else you can think of.
On the other hand im not sayin i wouldn't like it either.

Girls: I cannot stress this enough:
IF YOU AREN'T BEING TREATED RIGHT BY A GUY, DON'T WAIT FOR HIM TO CHANGE. DITCH HIS SORRY DISGRACE-TO-THE-MALE-POPULATION ASS, AND FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL TREAT YOU WITH UTTER RESPECT!

Someone who will honor your morals.

Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.

Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.

Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.

Someone who will stop what theyre doing just to look you in the eyes

and say 'i love you'

AND ACTUALLY MEAN IT!

*****Give the nice guys a chance*****

Holdin Hands

Girls : If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of times.
Guys : Grab it if it happens more than once.

Cuddling

Girls : When you want to cuddle with him, tell him you're cold.
Guys : Automatically move closer to her.

Movies

Girls : During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder
Guys : Lift her chin up and kiss her.

Loving each other

Guys : When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her too... And mean it.

Laying below the stars

Girls : When you're both laying under the stars, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heart beat
Guys : Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers. Now make a wish about something you would like to happen Between you and your crush....

Guys: STRICKLY NO GRABBING!!

Girls: If he grabs you, KICKS his sorry arse GOODBYE!

Renewing Blog

2008-04-17T09:07:00.004+08:00

hey guys/girls. ur might be thinking it's kinda wierd that after mths i start to re-activate my blog again. haha actually is not that i wanted to do so. apprently this blogging system is considered under one of my individual modules. haha so ya i have no choice but to re-activate it rather thn re-creating it.

april 14: nothing really happened in school cos all biz courses have no tutorials for the first week. how cool is that! haha but i still went to sch 1stly: get my textbook. 2ndly: catch the CCA fiesta. 3rdly: waiting for my dear bf jerry. so yeap i still went to sch nevertheless. haha

april 15: "official" day that sch starts at 11 cos no tutorials. i had my first lecture:marco economics. all i can say is that i can barely understand what my lecturer is talking abt. hurhur this year is in for me this time! after that i have INFA. another accs lessons. basically the first 4 weeks is like a recap for ppl who learn acc before.

april 16: IS module for life management skill a.k.a. LMS. ya it's kinda fun in class & really slack. and the best thing is i meet 2 cool ppls that would be in the same class as me TA24. ur readers might be thinking; huh now then u meet ur classmates aint u suppose to meet them on ur orientation. haha guess what guys apprently our orientation groups were scattered! we weren't group according to out class. how depressing is that! but still i saw my classmates and one of them is SUPER crappy! haha hope to have fun with them when tutorial starts. for this module we are suppose to group ourselves up into group of 4 and introduce ourselves to our other 3 friends. so we did. and the teacher is super cool ar! i love her accent. LOL the best thing is i spoke up in class first! people who know me would be like that nt so pamela! haha but yeap i spoke up first for self introduction!

MY GOALS: GPA >3.0, top my CCA (dancesports) ,ask questions in class. ( i know is kinda wierd to place this here. but participation in tutorials give u marks!)

LOVES
Pam

March Holidays

2007-03-11T21:02:00.000+08:00

Finally! after so long rite? haha yeap rite. btw it's the start of the 1 week school holi! yea!! haha must relax thn study again. this yr is a tough yr. anws i have lots and lots to update. so i'll start with CNY! CNY is so so so SO cool! haha first day sy john ben yh, rene came my house early morning for visitation after tat we went to yh's place! haha on th way rene and i were like learning from yh how to say happy new year in korean so it goes like this: saheboom marny paseysayo. i think the spelling was like tat. anws we where there and his mom's cooking was like super! best homemade korean food. haha his mom is also very pretty. thn we went to play basketball. i can play for nuts man! haha anyhow shoot de. haha but anyways i had fun! and JOHN has his collection of deprive childhood! haha John: modal, rene: director. after yh's place we went to town. supposingly we were suppose to catch a movie but somehw our plans were ruin. so we ended up walking around. tat week sunday nat john yh and me went to rene's place. hell we took lots of pics again. posing here and there. haha but we had to go back early cos next day we had school. the following week we went to john place! sy yh rene nat mel daryl and me went his place. oh my his place was the best! may be cos his parents were nt at home. haha rene and i gt so crazy tat we ended up wearing his cloths. haha it was funny. we had pillow fight! his place was like the best. tat week we also went to nat's place. her was ok only but her house very nice! haha NATALIE YOU HAVE A VERY NICE HOUSE!! haha i so jealours! we left early tat day. but i went to my anut's place to have join in the last round of poker! i won $4 haha. but anws this CNY was great! never enjoyed tat well before.

Btw SY MAMA YUELI MAMA wo ai ni men wor!!

actually there are more thn dis amount of pics but too many already so i only chose the best!

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

another day have pass

2007-02-06T21:48:00.000+08:00

hey people. sorry that i have taken so long to update. i got kinda lazy. haha. actually nth really did happen during past month. the same old same old. study , test... haha some how today i gt bored that i stated to think abt the past. the more i think the more stupid i feel. dun ask me why cos i myself also not sure. VALENTINES DAY is coming! and i gonna be alone!

Red Camp 3!

2006-12-02T17:43:00.000+08:00

BOO! i'm back again. the past three days i had so much fun... so cool!. all the SL in red camp are so pretty (ladies), handsome (guys), CUTE! (both ladies and guys!) X)). haha. anyways the three days was tiring BUT full of excitment and enjoyment. haha next year if have another red camp. i wanna go again!. the best part was the 2nd day. JAM & HOP! SHAKE IT! Woot! party all night long wor!. haha going there i really had alot of experiance on the different kinds of courses, business (the course which i'm most likely to go to), IT & Digital Sciences, Life & Health Sciences, Engineering, Media & Humanities. and there are more new course which will be coming. but i forgetten wad are the courses. but anyways i have made my decision to go to Ngee Ann! My future school! i hope i will be able to see the SL's students leaders there when i go in!

I'm like in the BLUE team! THE COOLEST TEAM EVER! The First day was fun! we met the two emcees, Bryan and Zaid and OMG both bryan and zaid are SO cute. zaid was so hilarious! especially when he kept saying boggel ask bogal haha CUTE! They both were great! thn we had Mac for lunch and buffey( is it spelt like tat?) for dinner we went back abt 8 i think. well the first day we were suppose to have CCA experiance but becos of the rain we did not really get to view most of it. The 2nd day we went in as usual the talk to us abt which courses we where to go on tat day again so we went into FMS and Life Science. the FMS was cool they had like almost everything catwalk, film making! You name it they have it!Life science they talk to us ab the heart rate and stuff and they also teach us how to handle a baby for its shower, clothing, cleaning. The spread for the day was KFC for lunch and Yoshinoya for dinner. JAM & HOP the last event of the day. COM'ON LETS' ROCK THE HOUSE!! OMG tat event is like so totally cool! The shouting, the screaming and jumping can tear the place apar! COM'ON GIRLS SHAKE IT! SHAKE IT! We all dance till we drop! Btw, Ngee Ann is like so rich. They give away lots of goodies! Seriously, Jam & Hop is like the best best BEST event of the day! WOOT! We all were so HIGH! Can't believe it i never had more fun thn this! FLY AND HIGH! haha. The 3rd day we went in as usual. haha the funniest thing was when i was putting in the grand price paper and Zai say hi to me. But i dun no tat cos my back was actually facing him already. haha Tat was like so wierd. so in the end i never say hi. haha and after tat we went for our next course which is InforComm and technology. AND IT WAS THERE WHICH I WON A COOL NGEE ANN SHIRT! i din take the pic yet so can't out up. it's total pure black and is a polo tee. the shirt is like so comfortable! there is like the new smell! haha i no i'm wierd! wee! humph. but the thing end like so fast. i dun feel like leaving! sob sob. =( BUT, the red camp was GREAT! haha. i cant wait for the open house next year!

Us again! Left to right
Nat, Mel, Qing, Me, Rui, Ben

CHEESE! Left to Right
Ben , Rui, Me, Mel, Qing, Nat

Max (SL) and us!

Clarence (SL) and us!

one of the performance acting as baby!

baby in the shower!

WOOT! NGEE ANN ROCKS!

Another update!

2006-11-27T21:35:00.000+08:00

today i had fun! haha the dance organised the POP a.k.a. pasing out parade for us the seniors and our seniors ( clara. sadly she's the only person who went the rest were busy) well anyway we all met at bouna vista (is tat how u spelled it?) at 2pm thn we walk a super far distance to some cafe. at the cafe they serve food and games. haha we played lots of them and ended past 6 close to 7! haha i so excited cos i hardly stay out that late and i got home be4 730. its kinda cool to me cos most of the time i'm always home 5 or 6. it a new record. anws i had fun today and thx the dance juniors ur the minnie mouse cup! i love it! it's cute! haha but i'm much more excited abt the red camp this thurs! haha cant wait to go ngee ann!

the boring day

2006-11-05T22:17:00.000+08:00

i'm back again. life seriously sux! 24/7 at home is a bad tihing. the worst of all, my mom is sick! so she's also at home together wif me, maid and grandparents. hardly my bro is at home so i spent most of the time in front of the computer to be exact is youtube. watchin shows and everything. so i just finished watch the show princess hour a.k.a. Goong. is nt bad in the middle episodes. the beginning was okies but when chaegyung a.k.a Yoon Eun Hye said in front of the interview tat she wanted a divorce. the next few episodes were so depressing everyone was like crying and crying. yul a.k.a Kim Jeong Hoon in the beginning few episodes is ok. he was sweet, cute and hot!! haha but after tat he gets worst kinda irritating. hais cause of his mother tat's y he become like tat. and for shin a.k.a Joo Ji Hoon he din really like chaegyung at first but he soon got fond of her. at some episodes she and him was so sweet. anyways my holiday sux! i which to go back to sch... so sian at home go out also no mood. i dun mind staying at home while day unless there is a lot of korean dramas haha. spent whole day at home watching i also dun mind. haha. but anyways sometimes i want to be left alone. let me be alone! hais.

Updated

2006-10-30T11:05:00.000+08:00

i'm back! finally after such a long time i haven updated it yet. this holiday is so FREE. i also dunno wad to do. i spent most of my time on the com. it os like 24/7 infront of the computer. haha breakfast, lunch and dinner (sometimes) in front of the computer. now home doesn't really feel like home. to me it feels like some place i just need to sleep there. there's no more warmth like before. last time was filled with joy and laughter. now i guess is because each individual has our own activities. nth mouch really happen to me which is a good thing but also because I'M 24/7 AT HOME!! i spent most of my time reading, playing. soon will be studying. i think. must prepare for next year le. and this year the japen trip also nt sure comfirm yet. must pray hard tat the trip is comfirm. hais. hokkaido! and today, i have to help. no not help teach my brother to make tiramisu cake. i think he's giving some girl i guess. haha may be someday she may be my future sister-in-law. hmmm think too far le. tat's the future to decide. let nature takes it's course. the other day i stayed up late to complete the FFIX jigsaw puzzle. it very cute lot! haha LUNA AND TIDUS is so CUTE together!! haha but the say before my brother came in and say SURE ONE PIECE MISSING ONE! and true enough ONE PIECE IS MISSING!! WAH!! lol and is close to the centre. if it was at the side i won't mind. but is close to the centre. later frame up ppl ask. how come there is a hole inthe centre. this year pass so fast. at first we were all busy studying. then we were all worried about the paper. now we're like so free also nothing much to do.

Juz another ordinarly day

2006-09-21T15:41:00.000+08:00

this few day so sian. whole day at home studying. haha. well all the prelims paper have pass. haha n i no what i got for maths. A1!! hw cool is tat. haha although i gt a A1 i was nt veri happy becos my paper 1 so did dso badly! anws N i will do better. lol. my eng i passed. but dunno pass until hw lor. actually today i was suppose to go to john's place to study tgt wif sy n rene. but thn my mom dun allow so they ended up coming over to my place. haha dun say we. din study. we did okies!! sy aka mama finished a letter writing!! haha *CLAPS* for him. john n me have been helping rene with maths. wah! rene u have to rmb le. N's coming le. dun play le kks. haha. well so we had fun today. is better then being alone at home doing nth.

The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore..... Yet regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them ... it matters not. Because once in your life, whatever they were to the world they become everything to you. When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without trace of a sound, you know that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart. We love them for a million reasons, No paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart. A feeling. Only felt.